Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Holy Spirit, i pray that you will always answer my prayers, that you will always be with me mentally, physically and spiritually. I pray that you will give me strength, wisdom and love in all areas of my life, that you will fullfill me forever spiritually and mentally. I pray that you will give me understanding, confidence, and courage, that you will always guide and protect us in your divine love, for you are our salvation, king, father and mighty God. I pray to grow stronger in faith and commitments lord, that you will always provide for me, that your holy hands will be there for me to clench onto in my times of chrisis. I pray that we will be in good health and that your light will always shine with us. In your Holy name Jesus we thank you, Amen!
Monday, November 9, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Hello again, haha im so excited, im finally seeing my family again, even if its visually, i definiatly have the motivation to visit them next year. <3
Im sure there are some legit catholics out there, but theres been so much controversy about popes and molestation. Makes you wonder why that system still exists. Loueys also been to paradise a couple of times. He said the services are very interesting, humouring, and new. Whereas at a catholic church, the pope sais the same thing every church event, its boring, he doesnt relate it to any modern day activities, its just reading and thats it, its no wonder why so many people fall asleep. He said its too traditional. And in my perspective, to many people view churches these days as too traditional, and i believe thats one contribution to why people hesitate on giving religion a go.
And then my mum talks about buddhism, and i get fired up about how that religion has no destination. I respect other religions, but when it comes to comparing, perhaps i get too fired up. I say what i believe, and pretty much i dont care what people think of me in that category. Buddhism is defined as escaping the cycle of rebirth, we feel pain and suffering everytime we are reborn. Christianity, offers salvation, a destination after death, a spiritual existence. In my opinion, thats more sensible, they also follow the 10 commandments, including being a vegitarian, it also doesnt imply that their God forgives us of our sins. Now to me, that seems like a impossible religion. We all have our beliefs, i just wanted to point that out.
I swear this weather is doing my head in. Im feeling so stressed, anxious, exausted, my eyes feel heavy, im pissed off with my brother and a friend. I still have this infection and still recovering from my last hayfever attack. I also missed church this morning. So what i was trying to do last night was make my mum come back to church with her boyfriend, that was the first time i spoke to him properly too. He probably thinks that im a hot headed person. But he respects me so, thats good. it was a interesting conversation, i should warn people beforehand if i ever talk religiously again.
My mum was saying, howcome we never see the pastors donate, and howcome theres offerings every church day, and when pastors go interstate and overseas to preach, where do they get the money from. I have no idea, but i said that they are sponsored, and that they use the money to build more churches around the world, and for special events to bring new people into the community. And then i went and said its the level of faith, you give on faith, and perhaps this came out wrong, but i said, you dont get it because you lack faith, thats the whole purpose, you give without knowing, its like believing without seeing, and i know there will always be doubts, i have doubts and still do. But when im fired up, i ignore my flaws and just elaborate onwards.
I have a thought, and its becoming a stereotype about pastors, but i wont post it here, i'll just keep it in my mind for now.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
J.D.] Let's face the facts about me and you, A love unspecified. Though I'm proud to call you "Chocolate Bear," The crowd will always talk and stare.
[Turk] I feel exactly those feelings, too And that's why I keep them inside. 'Cause this bear can't bear the world's disdain, And sometimes it's easier to hide, Than explain our
[J.D. and Turk] Guy love, That's all it is, Guy love, He's mine, I'm his, There's nothing gay about it in our eyes.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
To begin my day, i went to uni SA city west to obtain my daily advertiser. I then happen to bump into Daniel Tsang, and Jonathan Kilvert, which i havnt seen all semester, we had a short converse about whats happened, whose dating and stuff, his in a new relationship with a cute girl, shes asian. It was great bumping into him, well i didnt, i was on my way out of the library to the state, and i managed to catch his eye. I also bumped into KT and Danial Quan, which i havnt seen in a long time, we exchanged converse until i had to go print my marketing notes.
I then proceeded to the State library, studying for a maximum of 4-5 hours, finnishing 3 chapters and 3 lecture notes. It was a productive day. While at the state library, i saw Raymond, Eric, Sam, Vye, Trung, Joseoph, Martin, Arnold, SK, Annie, Mai, it was nice seeing everyone studying for uni. The way i scheduled my day was, for every hour of study i get done, i get a 10minute break. It was effective. I then proceeded to Barsmith library, in which i bumped into Adrian, i've seen him like twice this year, we then chat for a while, until i see Linda, shes like my life coach, or was. We procrastinate for about an hour standing in the middle of the pathway, then Raf comes into the library, and i see Jonny Lo, Simon Chiu. It was really so great seeing Linda, ive bumped into her 3 times this year, shes on her final year of Uni, and her sister has graduated from Architecture, apparently she was one of the top students and has still not found a job.
We conversed past an hour and then Adrian demands we have dinner, i come to realise i havnt ate all day. So we go to see if Raf would like to join us. He was too busy playing super smash bro's on the laptop. So me and Adrian went ahead, at Wokinabox, we bump into Simon Foo, i've seen that guy like 4 times this year. Im suddenly bumping into old friends. Its hilarious how when exams are near, old faces draw near. Today was indeed very eventful, loving, blessed, and interesting.
I did intend to go badminton, but that didnt happen, i was too indulged in catching up with people. Todays weather was fantastic, when i woke, i knew today was blessed, as is everyday, but i felt today would be somewhat, more blessed. Tommorow will be just as interesting i hope. Amen!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
haha i just felt like saying, this month has been very pleasant, i dont know why, but i feel so loved. Things are finally getting better, maybe not all things, but the positives are finally weighing over the negatives, and my lifes getting back on track. I feel better about myself, with everything thats happened. This time, im watching the change and going with it, last year, i just felt the change, the difference is, i feel secure.
Theres also something i want to point out. Reading the bible is definiatly worth it, i feel as if i should emphasize this point because God wants me to. Well for a while now, i felt as if, God hasnt spoken to me lately, and that i has lost faith in myself, pretty much, i was burning out. I knew that even if i had lost faith in myself, id still have faith in God, but the difference is, the attitude you develop. And i believe with all my heart that, God stopped speaking to me because i was out of the habbit in reading the bible. I mean, the bible is full of Gods messages and blessings. We all have different ways of reading the bible, i for one, like to open to a random page and read a random scripture, and God will speak to me through that scripture because it will always personally relate to me.
And at times, it may not, but its definiatly preparing you for whats coming, it also makes you wiser, and more optimistic. So if you wonder why your life is going upside down, why your losing your mind, why your not who you are anymore, you'll find all your answers in the bible. And you cant just rely on prayer, reading the bible is as important as prayer. I mean God wrote it personally for us, and from my own assumtption, the bible emphasises that God has a never ending love for us, it emphasises so much about how much he loves us, it also emphasises how much we should fear God. I dont know what that means, but i know we're all loved. And through his wounds we are healed.
Cherie wrote me a small note in the bible she got me, and it sais "you deserve his love found in his words" and for some reason everytime i read that scripture, i always read "and through his words, we are healed" and i do believe that through his words, we are blessed, and healed. Because his love is so great for us, it cant be contained. We're drenched in his unfailing love, and when we're loved, we sometimes take it forgranted, and its normal because we're human, but just reading the bible is enough, even if you dont, he still loves us, but read it anyway to show your appreciation.
Well ever since ive taken back the hobby in reading the bible, my lifes gone back on track, Gods speaking to me again, i've found new friends, a very warm loving life group, and believe it or not, im a inspiration to some. I would also like to say that Weele, or however you spell his name, Jim Goh's brother is my inspiration, that man is truley amazing, he is a real man of God, and i want to be as committed as he is. His leaving oxygen to work in sydney i think, was heart breaking. Even if you dont know who he is, his Aurua is pretty much leaking out, i mean i could feel how pashionate he was. Truley amazing person, very inspirational. I want to be just like him, although i doubt it haha, but we'll see how i turn out to be.
If you ever meet him and wonder why his life is so wonderful, its because he is a man of God. and believe me, when you worship with him, his aurua is like whoa!!! anyway thats my personal thought, truly blessed and loved he is, wish him all the best. and do read your bible, it really does do miracles and blessings. God bless.
Isaiah 53:5, "But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His wounds we are healed."