I hate being right.

Things dont go well when im right.

Super heroes exist.

I swear i can make anyone i wanted, to laugh, i can make them smile, i can bring them joy. But when they're down, i can't do these things well. I'm suppose to be able to do these things, im suppose to be the hero. As cliche as that sounds, im suppose to be that kind of life saver. I hate showing that i care when i do, to anyone that is. God i hope things get better soon. It's like as soon as im on holidays im back at work, being there for others, i love it, but sometimes life throws something unexpected at you, and its going to be the toughest of them all. Its your best friend, and you know that you have to be there for them, yet at the same time, you feel you cant do much beause everyone else is doing the same. And as your priority, you're suppose to beable to save them despite how inexperienced you are, your suppose to keep their eyes towards the light. Your suppose to carry their world for them while they're exausted.

While i was out having an awesome time last night. You were facing the hardest moment of your life so far. If i had a mobile, maybe someone would have told me. I feel so guilty when i shouldnt. I wish i could be more helpful, more wise, more capable. We all know things will get better, but its time we dont want to spend on making it better. Its what reminds us that makes it hard, and knowing that things only get harder makes it worse. It's like mountain climbing without the safety belt. Everythings at the bottom of us, and if we fall, we fall to lose it all. And its that little thing that knowing you could be right that remains in your mind even though you were right. Its the little things you let slide that finally comes together into one gigantic thing.

Dam i wanted it to go well for you. I'll keep you in my prayers, for sure.

Addicted.

Oh i am craving badminton.

check out that wrist. *-*

Check out that reflex!

And this guys crazy jump smash! D:

Lets take a picture here!

Fun times.

We have the most random fun times doing nothing in town.

Love this photo.

Hit me.

So as i was walking to the shops, i was thinking about someone. (No names will be mentioned). And its weird, because everytime i think about this person, I feel like i've met them beforehand (and i have). But its more like, i've been in the future and back, as if i've met them before i actually met them. And i remember when i did, it felt exactly like it was suppose to feel. I'm not saying i like this person in a certain manner, but its like, i could if i wanted to. Is that what they call soul mates? And as cliche as this may sound, but i feel as if, fates the dealer and we're the contestants. And we've all played blackjack, we're not competing with each other but the dealer.

So, as i was walking to the shops, i was thinking, summing up all the possibilities of why i feel as if each day is playing out as its suppose to. Why things happen for a reason? Why despite how i play, the same cards are just waiting to be laid down. And then i look up, i see two purely white doves, and im thinking, is that normal? i mean how often do you see doves? in Adelaide. Well for instance, i havnt seen a dove all year, yet alone that close, with that thought in mind. Maybe despite all those letters informing me of my "final notice" to return my event photoes from Maye's formal, it was suppose to lead to this moment.

I didnt see myself walking to the shops, i didnt see myself thinking about this person, i didnt expect doves waddling a few feets infront of me. It was as if, i was walking, and they flew directly infront of me, to get my attention. It could be the reason why i'm avoiding relationships now, because at the back of my head, i'm thinking nothings going to work out, until the trump cards been played.

Life is like a deck of cards, you never know whats going to be played, you cant predict the next card. We rely on luck, and chance, we all want to win, nobody wants to lose.

Vain.

I'm so stressed out by so many things this week. My family has been the least supportive if anything, im beginning to see that i hate each one of them more and more everytime we bond. I've become so vain. What else could go wrong? everything. It's almost like your soul purpose is to piss me off, get me off track, then return to the hell you came from. You're insignificant, and i hate you.

Dr Cox's best quote.

Scrubs

Dr Cox's Quote: Relationships dont work the way do they in telivision and the movies, will they? wont they? and then they finally do, and they're happy forever, give me a break. 9 out of 10 of them end, because they wern't right for eachother to begin with, and heck the ones that get married get divorced anyway, and im telling you right now through all this stuff, i have not become a cynic, i havn't. Yes i do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate coated candy, and you know, in some cultures, a chicken, you can call me a sucker i dont care, cause i do, believe in it. Bottom line, its couples that are truly right for eacher other waiting for the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they dont let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship everytime, if its right, and their real lucky, one of them will say something.