Despite what we know, life is always full of uncertainty. I'm so unsure about myself, i dont even trust my morals anymore. It's hard to know what you want, when all you've ever wanted is right infront of you. What do i do now?
I've had this problem before, where you want something, but when you can get it, you dont know if you want it anymore. it's always like this. what a let down Pan!
So today marks a very special day. A day where i go without facebook until the end of exams. I trusted a dear friend to be my keyholder. And now i'm thinking, what have i done? What a evil witch! i'm so bored without facebook, so now all i can do is blog and check my formspring. or just procrastinate on msn. Looks like it's just you and me blogster, we're gonna have loads of fun and bitching ;).
Oh, i'm going to miss messing around on fb, or just starting trouble, and being a jerk. what do i do now?
How many people out there rekons the Harvard referencing system suck balls? yeh, i bet you all do. It is the most Ma Fan system out there, more Ma Fan than Jaime Ma Fan.... why so Ma Fan la? =.=
Reference that Harvard! btw Peter (2010) stated recently that you suck balls and nobody likes you? not even the law students. Why do you make life so ma fan........ if it wasnt for you, we'd all be successful students.... i hope your happy, and that you go to hell for making life hell for us. You Seriously suck ass and one day i hope you come to realise how many suicides you've caused, maybe then you will be less of a dick.
Sometimes we like to carry the good times with us, and it's because we do, that we forget to make the good times come. It's all about letting go. Because life doesnt wait for anybody unless your awesome (like me). lol
oh i havn't spoken to anyone about how i feel, or what i want for so long. It feels so great to have someone to listen to and talk to. I'm more confused. You know, if she actually reads my blog, i just wanna say that, last week, i felt that there could be something wrong in your life, so i made a prayer to God, that if anything, through him, i can help you bring change for the better into your life. But actually you actually helped me. And this was unexpected because i thought i was on top of the game. But infact, i'm as vulnerable as everyone else is.
We've actually had quite a past. I should be able to repay you back. Sometimes its overkill, but you're actually really nice to me. Thanks. Its hard to show appreciation, but i am grateful. Maybe i can learn alot from this. Thank you God, i pray that you will always be with us, and help us through the good and bad, because you won't give us anything we can't handle right? (:
And because i'm a chistian, that through his blessings on me, you will be blessed.
& i will be able to change your life around. Because i feel that it is my purpose in life that God has given me, to change the lives of those who are lost or broken. Thanks for being there for me.
Last friday marked the most legendary day of this year, so far. SAPSA's Pharmacy cruise. The night involved alcohol, dancing, loud music, lots and lots of friends, and of course a variety of food. And with food comes photoes. So many highlights of the night, which i wont go through. But it was indeed very fun, and a very interesting night of experience haha.
Some photoes of the cruise.
Salute to the American race. my favourite white boy Ron.
Me and Delphine. my awesome Frienemy.
Me and Eeshin. the super cute girl.
And of course the King of Jerks by order (clubs, hearts, diamonds and spades).
Made so many new friends that night, met some old high school friends. Bashed a few people, drank shots with some really good friends, danced on the dance floor, and best of all, it was all on a cruise.
Alcohol is not a good friend when you've had abit too much haha. All that was going through my mind was "becareful of what you do" because everything has its consequences. Sometimes the best way to avoid those circumstances when you feel something stupid might happen is to run away. Where was Thong or Kevin to save me from almost making a mistake? haha, i was very well in control anyway. Though temptation is a very cunning enemy, i should be more careful.
so tempting haha. Alcohol + temptation are the worse enemies you could have haha. on the other hand last night was absolutely Legendary. was nice seeing Jaime, Justine, Tansy and Cyrus there. and of course the aweomse pharmacy students and the coolest white boy in town Ron.
Didnt get to release a certain dolphin back into the ocean, but we did beat up a viet. All i remember from last night is that, serena kept making me drink, i had epic sword fights with michelle and lost. I got nipple crippled and nipple crippled some people back. taking alot of photoes with many friends onboard. making many new friends, chatting to a random halfcast. starting trouble with alot of my friends haha. Giving dolphin a piggy back ride, doing some dance with daniel, taking alot of photoes with Eeshin. Going to AB's.
haha last night was definiatly, once in a full moon. Love you guys.
And most important of all, Thanks God, for always answering my prayers and coming to my aid when i really needed you. I havn't been to church in oh so long, but i know your always watching me like a father watches his son. I am so blessed.