You've got that smile, that only heaven can make, i'll pray to God everyday, that you keep that smile.
If you were me for a day, you'd realise how much i think about you. You'd watch "how i met your mother" so that you'd know what a sucker for love i am. You'd blog about yourself, because your all i think about. You'll pray for yourself because i always keep you in my prayers to God, And you'' know just how much you mean to me. (:
I think everyone has that someone that they really like who probably liked them back, but nothing ever happened, and they were always known as the one who got away.
Had a dream about her last night, which was totally unexpected, she asked me to go crabbing, but we just spoke. i woke myself up anyway, Maybe I'll see her tonight at the party, haven't seen her in almost two years. It'll be a good catch up.
You know with every crush, you picture moments with them? romantic ones? action filled ones? something that you'd wish to do with them, be it an adventure or some sort of fantasy.
You'd picture that perfect moment, but it'd never happen. Even when the timing is right, the place is perfect, but the universe hasn't planned for you to be together. And everything falls into a disaster, your expectation isn't met, you are disappointed, and you leave hurt.
And the best thing about you is that there is no planning, we can do what ever we want, because we want the same thing, just to see each other. You brighten up my day, and you make it special, and i couldn't ask for more. When we see each other, it's like opening a box of chocolate, you never know what your gonna get.
If what you have is love, then it's worth fighting for, you're not a fool for holding on, your a fool for letting go. I wish people didn't give up on love so easily. It's not something that comes along everyday or year, it's spontaneous and the best thing that could ever happen to anybody.
To me, love is like a pet dog, you can chase it all you want when it gets out of the house, and it'll keep on running, you keep on chasing, but once you stop, it comes after you. (and then you take it home and eat it) haha jk. But not chasing after love, does not mean giving up on love, it just means, you are patient, and waiting for the right moment, and right person. Great things happen when you are facing your worse days. ;) so enjoy your worse days, and hope for the best.
A relationship should be easy, simple. And on some level it has to just be easy.
It's always been hard for me in the past, so many things getting in the way. And inside you actually knew that they weren't what you were looking for. You weren't prioritised, there was no equilibrium, people got in the way, they took you for granted, there were more bad times than the good, you weren't happy, you argue, you weren't content. And above all those, you still gave it a shot.
A relationship should be easy, and simple. As awkward as our situation is, you make it easy. It feels right with you, and it's just never been like that with others. There's no way of seeing the future, but if things fall into the the right places, i couldn't be more sure that you are the one.
Being in a couple is hard, and committing and making sacrifices it's hard, but if it's the right person, then it's easy, looking at that girl and knowing that she's all you really want out of life should be the easiest thing in the world, and if it's not like that, then she's not the one.
Love doesn't stay, it simply keeps on moving, therefore hold onto it for as long as you can. Because it's one long roller coaster ride.
or you could try taming it haha.
all i can say is "Fudge!"
What do i want to do right now? i want to read, study, workout, go for a drive, play a game of dota, talk to my brothers, talk to someone on the phone, have a dnm, will i do any of those tonight? probably not, thats the saddest part.
I feel a little confused. Insecure, i don't know why. But i guess the best thing to do is to stop thinking. Maybe it's because i spent a beautiful day sitting on a chair. Maybe it's because i feel alone.
I guess this is the feeling when you are devoid of love. Won't you give me strength and hold me in your embrace, i wish i was a better angel. I wish you were proud of me as a father is of his son. I need to do a righteous deed, one out of love, and not sympathy.
"As a child is fed and provided" now is the time for me to grow up and find my own deeds. Where will it take me?
The love i receive from you certainly brings out the best of me. You are simply my last thought before i sleep, and the first thought when i wake. You are my morning and night drug, essential to my everyday life. You are my obsession.
And as would any other addict, going two years without you would be near impossible. But the fact is, as soon as you start taking it again, the obsession will once again override.