Bible study. <3

I feel as if, God has given me the authority to connect with broken people, in accordance to Christ. I feel like im capable of testing ones faith and restoring it. I'd like to believe that is my mission for now, my purpose.

I will fulfill my destiny. To be blessed is to bless others. *-* i learnt alot from bible studies, and ive never liked speaking personally infront of people i dont know, but i did it and thats what i said. so i thought i'd share it with my fellow blog followers. (:

Yeh, i know i've used this picture before, but i'll go research more random pictures later. (Y)

Prison break. *-*

Today, I finally finnished every episode through to the last of Prison break. And i dare say it was well worth every hour spent. Ending was quite depressing, i cant believe how into it i was. Such a great story line, covered love, had many twists, alot of action, just all in one. Man i loved it.

It got me thinking when scolfield was talking to the General. "Its just a game hey?"

I recommend Prison break to anybody whose got plenty of times on their hand, well worth it. (Y) now to find a new addiction.

Just like a Rose. *-*

A Rose is most beautiful by itself. Thorns or no thorns.

Best 2 days of this week. *-*

Last night, i could't decide between paradise or OCF, in the end i thought i'd go to OCF since i was alredy late to paradise and missed worship. And bible study seemed very interesting in its own way. So my mum drove me to paradise interchange, it was so cold!!! i was so tempted to just go to paradise, but then i thought i better not ditch Elysia. So as i caught the bus which came in an hour, i was pretty much frozen. Got on the bus, this guy starts talking to me, and his like so what do you think about the war? and i was like what war? he was like the Korean war?

And i was like, i dont care, and then he starts saying Australia was built on criminals, i went to prison for this country and i want to ask everybody on this bus, Who wants to apologise to the Aborigines? and this Aborigine Chick stood up and was like Hey! you STFU!!! it got so tensed and this massive built up wog guy came to defend the chick, he was like you fucking racist! and i was thinking in my head, no shit, someone should smack him.

But then finally got to town, adrenaline rush slowed down. and i went to the same place OCF was at last time, except this time i got lost for like 40minutes and had to ask security guards for directions, finally got there and the weird thing was they were transcribing Johns and the main character was between Peter and Jesus and i was like man this is uncomfortable. lol

But i got use to it, and the people there are really nice. (Y) they're like all malaysians and chinese i made friends with like 8 people well they came and started talking to me, yep they were all girls and one guy (Y) lol. And then i found out they everyone there was like 80% pharmacutical students in 3-4th year and some accounting students. But nevertheless, very interesting people, they even drove me home which really got to my soft side lol.

I think i like this new group, this new level of Christianity. Im gonna try Adelaide Uni OCF next week and we'll see how that goes. And then Next Saturday i'll check out Vi's life group. (Y) During bible study its very opened to conversations and personal opinions, sorta like politics but everybody is right, i was abit quiete but i think i'll come out of my shell sooner or later. Very nice people, very nice host and they provide snacks after. (Y) Very nice day.

Thursday, needed to help hoi with business studies so i thought id go town and do something, so i called up Vi and decided to go to lunch. Got to Uni to return my book that was like $20 fine for overdueness for 14 weeks. And Vi was still rushing her assignment, its possible to say she screwed up because she left it to the last minute, but her work wsa very impressive i must say. Architecture is very intersting and if possible Vi send me a photo of that thing you built i want to post it up here. After eating Hoi texted me and had to go, i was like ah crap time to get to business. But it was very interesting, okay one reasons why i like to help hoi is because her business is quite similar to my business course and what i learn from her assignments and tests, i take into accordance to uni. And so therefore im studying basicly.

She drove me home and was listening to "Wu Ding" man i love that song. Hoi was also singing it, very nice voice she has. and yeh very nice day. Cant wait til i get my P's. Its been a pretty good week, also met Sharons sister at Bar Smith library on tuesday which was good havnt spoken to her in abit, and caught up with raf for some KFC and study which was awsome, though the fag didnt even say bye when he left.... Very nice week, got my assignment done, caught up on sleep, got back to my very first hair style which only Elysia has seen from last night and been eating alot these days.

Thank God for this blessful week and more to come. Oh and last night i was talking to this girl and Elysia comes and somehow the topic changes and Elysia was like is that your brother over there? and shes like no! thats my boyfriend and i was like noo! Elysia you didnt just say that LOL and she was like omg sorry! very interesting people, and atmosphere.

Im going to try something new, from what i learnt in last nights bible study. we'll see how it goes. (Y)

More than Less. *-*

I feel like watching Full house again. Watched it 6 times alredy, but its my all time favourite drama, its full of emotions and very unrequited. Will be heading to Uni in an hour or so, im so very bored. Its so very cold and im very sick of accounting.

I was so cold i asked my grandma what she did with my top and she said i thought it was Vinces, so i put it in a bag with his belongings in Andys room, so he can come and get it when he comes back. And i was like wow she still doesnt know, his not coming back for like 5 years or 10. or less if lucky. And she was like o.o

Man So many things Vince left behind, that sheet of paper where that hot chick gave you her number, lol maybe i should call it, im joking :P. The list of names we wrote down for the karaoke and dinner night. The scarves and facial creams. Man you should somehow magically come back. If only i could teleport *-*

I believe there is more to life then what our eyes tell us. There has to be something uncomprehensible, something that'll shake the earth and create a new era. That was one reason why i wanted to become an archeoligist when i was a kid. And now, how did i end up doing accounting? I feel like diversifying alredy, i have two options in mind, but im not sure if i want to pursue yet. Anyway im gona chill for a bit then head to Uni.

What wonders does Tuesday hold? Maybe today i'll find a 4 leaf clover. *-*


Haha man i love these guys, they have the best comics. *-*

Beauty is sinful. (:

You know what i think? Beauty is such a sin. It certainly gets your attention, let alone gets you attracted at the same time. It also makes you think twice. Beautiful people should be classified under dangerous. It also distracts you like hell, yet alone you dont want to walk away from the distraction lol. These 7months are going so slow, and so many obsticles suddenly. Whoosh! i'll be very dissapointed if i fail to live up to my own words, which im very concern of at the moment. (Y)

Anyway beauty doesnt define itself, personality plays a huge roll in ones beauty. You can be seen as ugly if your personality doesnt fit your image. therefore beauty is beyond skin and bones, i wonder if we become who we want to be in terms of personality, or is it the life style we experience and the people around us that makes us who we are? or can we simply just decide to be a tard and change as we like? i think personality is developed in the long term, sorta makes you curious about certain people and how they became the way they are. I think i'll bring this question up the next time i go for coffee. *-*


Yeh dont ask where i get my random pictures from. lol

Whats with the leng loi's these days? *-*

Wow i was sitting next to 4 korean leng loi's at the library today. and Saw some old friends from black fries, wasnt a bad day, i also found a 5 leaf clover, which doesnt seem to be making me any luckier. o.o
Also this leng loi today randomly asked if we could be friends lol. Is that the work of the clover? because thats not what i want lol == so much for raf coming to the library today, and omg i got so much to do T_T much work tripple times harder 2molo!

Got 1000 words done today, now need to edit, do graphs and do summary... its gonna be a long day and when its over, wooo! celebration with coffee! ever tried the irish nut creme? its so nice! double thumbs up. (Y)
And this david cook song is the song of the week.

David Cook - Come back to me

too lazy to post lyrics, but yeh, i need to shower and then sleep soon, have a long day 2molo, today wasnt bad, quite blessful, although i missed my bus because i went to eat kfc. but it wasnt my fault i had no money, nothing to eat at home went to library all day and didnt wana bother Zoe and Pheobe again to look after my laptop so starved til death T_T but i got my wallet back (Y) yay lol.

im seeing my guai lou group tommorow the ones that snaked me out, i wana stab them... bloody guai lou's underestimate my kindness, i'll smack yu across the head and watch you bleed ==


Apparently only the four leaf ones are lucky T^T shudnt a 5 leaf one mean your more lucky? ==

Monday. (:

Good morning Monday *-* what wonders lie hidden? 12pm current, about to head to library and get this assignment done, woooo! im on fire with determination to get this over and done with! and who knows i'll get my wallet back 2molo then i can go on a food spreee aswell, sigh i wanted to have lunch in town but i have no money T___T" and theres no food at home, whats going to fuel my determination, noooo ==" bad start! sei la!
"Next, chicken necks?" lol XD

Oxygen Mask? *-*

Wow Oxygen really has all the leng loi's in one place. Today, i saw 4 leng lois around the 8-9 mark. Hopefully they arnt fobs, anyway, today has been an alright day, service was good, friday night service was good aswell, very inspiring. And Oxygen played this new song they came up with today, i swear it was incredibly amazing, a very lovely song, with amazing lyrics.

Couldnt really make out what the malaysian speaker was saying, but he has good humour. (Y) they also have awsome worship and an awsome preacher. I wonder how long it'll take for me to adapt to the new people and the new atmosphere i hate that feeling. Getting to know a new group of people when you've oredy got an awsome group.
Also another fun thing about today, we were in Pyuish's car and he played Taylor swift, and him and Xian were like singing the song, sorta reminded me of the 70's show. And then white horse came on, haha lovely people.

Im enjoying this life as a young adult, no boundries and chilling with many friends is the way to go. (Y) You know what i just realised, when you say your going to do something and you swear you will stick by your words, theres always something new that comes in place just to try and screw you over. Something that'll show you just how fragile your words of commitments are.

I wonder what this week holds, i need to get out of this house and finnish my accounting assignment real fast, 2000 words due on wednesday 1pm, good thing i finnish early 2molo, and now im slightly just off the cold, i can focus, and concentrate my ass off now. If i finnish this, i get to go out with friends and drink coffee and have awsome conversations. Omg thats my goal, yep after discovering the lovely taste of warm caffiene, ive developed the Gloria jeans fever right after my other fevers, such as ice cream, chocolate, and happy meals.

Man i just wana slack off go chill, sit, chat, and drink coffee right now, but i cant, not with all this load of work in my way. Exams in 3weeks, i need to study now!!!! I swear 2molo i have to get part B of my assignment done and then tuesday i can finnish part C and go on a coffee streak. aww just thinking about all the hard work 2molo, im not looking foward to going to bed and waking up to a dooms day.

Anyway, i feel like this week is going to be amazing, i feel blessed, actually ive been feeling blessed lately, I met this old granny on the bus, and we talked abit, i was coughing and she said, you need to quit smoking, and i was like, i dont smoke. And then we stopped talking and suddenly i get a thought from above, ask her about Christ. And i was like are you serious? right now? when i have a cold, can barely talk, coughing like a lung cancer patient and you want me to ask her about Christ and probably make her sick?

And then i felt this voice in my head, if you do it, i'll bless you and heal you. And i was like... okay... thats good enough for me, but in one condition, you make her talk to me first again. and so i sat and waited, coughed again and she was like, i bet thats right on the chest hey? and i was like yeh, howd you know? and then we talked abit and i was like, so would you happen to be religious? and she was like yeh, im a Christian, and i was like really? and she was like you are too? i can see your cross earing.

And then i was like yeh (Y). and we spoke more and ended up talkign about her family, and i was like so is your husband also a Christian? and she was like no, we've been married for 28 years and he has never once gone to church with me. and i was thinking in my head, wtheck, doesnt he even want to spend time with his wife, or when she was his girlfriend? O_ o why is it that people are so afraid of getting to know Christ? Does that mean, their not soul mates?

i dont know but, as i got off the bus, she was like, bless you and bless you always, i was like you too. And that really changed my mood for the rest of the day, and i still feel blessed. Its amazing how strong words can be and how far they can go. you know, i should start taking photoes with the peolple God sends my way. (Y) I wonder what this week holds, all i know is, its going to be another blessing just like each and everyday. see what dooms day holds 2molo lol.

gonna leave it here and sleep, good night awsome sunday. (Y)


Everybody needs oxygen. *-*

We're not alone. *-*

When you've been playing on the safe side for so long, you kinda forget that you were actually playing at all. and the only game you actually know how to play now, is the safe side. Which got me thinking, some people probably get stuck on the safe side for their entire life, and boy am i not going to head in that direction. -.-"

I remember talking to vince, he said something like this. "Yeh, me and my friend use to like this white girl and because he was my friend i let him have her, and because they broke up i took her to the formal and now we're having conflict. We're not really friends anymore." and whats sad about this is, watching Vince leave, he left more than just his friends but he left the girl he had his heart for, for all these many years. And he didnt get to go out with her because he was playing on the safe side for too long and now his in the Philipines.

That day at the airport was like watching a drama, i never thought drama's could be so real, but over exagerated, until that day. And you will probably read this, tell me if i got your story right or wrong. I learnt something from your inconvenience, and that is, set a time frame, because time is more then just time itself, it becomes change and dissapointment.

I remember asking, so are you going to get a girlfriend in the Philipines? and he was like, iuno if i do it'll be harder to come back, cus then id have to leave her or get her to come along aswell and thats going to take even longer. and then he was like what i would give to find just a white friend over there, better if it was even a girl. this is so weird its like after living in the modernised world of 2000 then getting deported back to the 60's in a unmodernised country. and trying to get use to lifes inconvenience.

We really should appreciate what we have here, eat food we dislike, spend our time wisely, cherish our friends and family, help out if not once in awhile, do the 24 hour famine, apologise for inconvenience, and other things that we find hard to do.

Corinthians 8:11-14 "But just as you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in your love for us—see that you also excel in this grace of giving. I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others. For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich. And here is my advice about what is best for you in this matter: Last year you were the first not only to give but also to have the desire to do so. Now finish the work, so that your eager willingness to do it may be matched by your completion of it, according to your means. For if the willingness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what he does not have. Our desire is not that others might be relieved while you are hard pressed, but that there might be equality. At the present time your plenty will supply what they need, so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. Then there will be equality,"

I like this scripture from the bible, its about giving, We must give to God, but we must also give to others that need. And Vince, we tried to give you the best 3months you had left and i juse hope we gave enough to your need of friendship, comfort, shelter and food. Your a passioniate person, keep following God, because he can give your life back. he has the answers to your unanswered questions and the directions for your purpose, he also has the blueprints of how your life should be built, and the first step is with him.

God bless always.

Vince #2. <3

I dont know when you'll be coming back, but when you do, i wonder just how much our lives will have changed.
Will i still be in Uni? have a job? have a girl friend? be married? moved out? have my licence? have my own car? have kids? still be in Adelaide? be at the same church? who knows.

What i do know is, we'll definiatly cross paths again, if not physically, then spiritually, because we're all following the same path. And this house will always have room for another guy. That hamick will be waiting for you, because its friggen dirty and i dont want it and the cocaine blanket is yours.

Its been a funny and fun 3 months, im still missing your company. no more steak nights and karaoke nights. Just how much will change when you get back? Just thank you for appreciating all the little things i do, and accepting my jokes, it really meant alot to me. and walking with me home after church, and eating with me, and singing and worshipping with me.

You've completely funked up my mind. Im going to need a new church buddy and someone i can nag and tease that understands me and appreciates my whackness the way you do. these words are so corny, i hate being corny, but just for you. bless you Vince. (Y)

Vince. <3

Today was the day you left, said your good byes and left a hole in each of our hearts. You meant so much to me in the short time we spent together. I sacraficed Uni to spend more time with you, and i dont regret it, but i wish only you had been able to stay. In the short time that you've lived with us, you've certainly changed our family, it felt more like a family, we did things together, ate together, watched tv together and laughed together.

If i wasnt too busy trying to pull myself together and not cry infront of the friends that were there i would have said thanks for making me not feel alone, its great to have someone around, just there, when im watching tv, and you come, it just takes away that lonely feeling, msning with you behind my back and eating and laughing. Im gona miss you so much. When we left the airport, i could feel everything sinking in, i didnt cry infront of our friends but i got teary, and i gues you meant more to me than i realised, i caught the J2 back to paradise and a youth leader came on the bus, he askd me where i was coming from and as i told him, "from the airport, you know vince? he just got deported back" and i could feel my voice cracking. He askd "back to where?" and i broke down, i couldnt even say one word, "Phelpanes (Philipines)" and thats when i realised i dont care anymore, i cried infront of a packed bus with everybody staring at me, but thats how much you've influenced me.

Memories flashing back and i cant stop thinking, town just seems so lonely in itself now, i dont care how many friends i have but, when im leaving town id would get a phone call or a txt mesage from you asking about dinner or karaoke, and catching the bus home knowing that somebody i knew might be on the same bus just felt so good. I just got a phone call from darren youth leader, thought i was a new guy and i didnt know who he was and then turned out he was the guy i sat with on the bus. i broke down again. trying to pull myself back together to finnish this blog.

Lost my wallet the other day, and spent the only money i could find stuffing around my room with ice cream and chocolate, man i wish you were here, its so quiete and lonely now. I cant believe you've impacted me so much, dont care how queer i sound, but you mean so much to me specially for a guy. Keep following God always and we'll cross paths again, because this isnt how its suppose to end, we're not suppose to lose someone like you, like this. this is bullshit, and i object to watever the devils done.

Ive seriously had the worse week this week, lost my wallet, guai lous fucking me off, and getting sick again and a gayed up hair cut and it gets even worse. im leaving it here will continue it another time.

i'll miss you so much, its back to lonely days and back to the sounds of silent. You meant so much to me in the little time you had left, and i pray you will always be blessed, because you are a blessing yourself. Much love always Vince. ♥ You've simply touched us all, heart and soul. (Y)

much love always.

Dont ask why that picture is sideways, i dont know.