Friends.

Friends can be hard on you, maybe they expect more from you than strangers. Strangers pretty much see you the way you want them to see you, you can't fool friends. That's what makes them friends. - Pretty little liars. 

Invert.

This is what i've been doing in my holidays (:

I've been practising my invert. It's not to this kind of degree yet, its moreso another 30 degrees upwards haha.  But i'll get there when my flexibility increases.

And i've been practising my Hollowback. Which is also not to this degree yet, but moreso getting there haha. I'll post up photo's of my freeze's when i can get someone to take it for me :D

Random fact #2

I'm usually a very talkative person. If I have nothing to say, if I am quiet, if it feels awkward, then I probably like you haha. 

But that doesn't mean I will say or do anything. Because I like to find out how much I like you. haha

Silent.

At times, you feel really strongly about something. You feel as if you have so much to say. And in some cases, so much more to say. But when the time comes, you either say too little, or nothing at all.

And it's the things you don't say that eats your chest away. It's the things you don't say that keep you awake at night. It's the thought of letting it out, expressing it the right way that holds you down.

I believe in some cases, where it is absolutely necessary we should just "stop thinking" and just "do it" before we confuse ourselves. (:

Thing's that make me Happy. (:

1. Friends
2. Food
3. A funny joke
4. Singing
5. Day dreaming
6. Sunshine
7. Catching a smile from a random
8. Making someone laugh
9. Receiving a compliment
10. DnM's
11. Anything where your one on one (shopping, eating, walking, watching)
12. Someone that understands.

At times we think we're in love, but it's just what we want.

It's just what we need, it's what we're searching for.
Love is scary, it takes us to unfamiliar territories. It makes us afraid to embrace, because it forces us to face reality.

Re-connecting!

It's been recent that I've began to notice, but I think God is answering my prayers, and trying to re-connect with me. I've had several insights, and I've learnt why I am so hard on myself. I keep trying to save everyone around me, trying to make them laugh, or remind them for a moment that they are something special. It's weird, I know. I must sound crazy to you right now. Expressing myself. And believe me, I feel as awkward as you do, talking spiritual. More so seeing another side of me, a sensitive side.

Just let me float for a while.

FRIEND.

It's good to have a good friend to talk to. Someone you can trust. Someone who is mutual, and understanding. Someone who shares the same values, and principals. Someone who see's through all my lies, and intentions. Someone who understands that despite what you see on the outside, that everything inside is pure. 

I may come across as many things. And it's those who recognise me for my true intentions that I get close to. Not to those that only see me as just another friend. It may be hard to see it, but few people know just how great of a person I am. Now I'm not being arrogant, but I am one of a kind. Way better than the average. 

There are about 5 people who know me just the way I am. Just because they chose to get to know me.

Character.

It's amazing how certain circumstances can bring out a change of character in oneself. Perhaps it's always been there, or perhaps it's been awaken. More so it's because certain people take you for granted for what your worth as a whole. It's because certain people aren't after the type of person you are but the type of benefits your relationship brings them. Whether it be, reputation, new friends, events, benefits. 

 And it's after accepting all the shit that's gone down, to realise that this relationship is never gonna change. That you finally snap and decide to fight for what you deserve. Respect. I don't have the time to care for everyone around me any more, nor do I have the time to try to fix everything with an apology that isn't deserved.

I'm a very reasonable person at that. I'm forgiving, yet hard to forgive and forget. I move on when needed. But to think that I'll lower my worth to someone/or people that take me for granted. I don't think so.

This has brought out another character in me. The one I've been holding back. I use to be such a good Christian, such a good person. And then you get those people that step all over you and take you for granted.

I use to have so much love. May be God will bring me back to the happy times. 

You've only done wrong, if you feel guilty. And I don't feel guilty, nor do I feel righteous.