Forever.

I haven't felt this aching pain for a long while. It's that feeling where you feel like your about to lose something important. Despite how strongly and firmly you hold onto it, there's not much you can do. You just have to wait it out and hope for the best.

How do you tell someone you want to spend the rest of your days with them and hope that they believe you. You can't, you just have to take their word for it. And that's the hardest thing about making life-changing decisions, you can only take their word for it. Or you could go with your instincts and do whatever the heck makes you happy.

Tough times are coming, and high tides, things are looking ugly, but the thought of having you near is all i need. Knowing that you value me as much as i value you helps me stay strong. I haven't felt this vulnerable for so long. I haven't wanted anything this much, and i haven't felt this strongly about anyone before.

How can i let the most valuable thing i hold go? I could never. How could i let go of love? I won't.

Can't think of a inspiring way to end this blog, too much on my mind, i'll think of something next time maybe haha. 

What you mean to me.

To me, you are the reason i stay up so late at night, you keep me up, your the reason i wake up in the morning, the reason i go to uni. There's not a minute that goes by without you in a thought. You're the first thought to my morning, and the last thought to my night. 

You are now my happiness, my love, and my life. 

I've always had that simple thought, where searching for your soul-mate was the most important thing because, once you found them, everything would be easy, and it would all fall into place. But what i've realised is that, that is only the first step to happiness. 

Everything changes, and things get in your way, but at the end of the day, she's all you want to see. You come across obstacles which could make or break your relationship, but the key to getting pass it is by going through it together not by yourself. Because trying to get pass it by yourself is what single people do. 

Loving you is the best thing i've done. You're the kind of person i want to wake up with by my side, the kind of person i'd make breakfast and coffee for. The kind of person i'd travel the world with, the kind of person i'd take to church on a Sunday morning and the kind of person i'd grow old with. 

Tell me i'm naive, but i know what i want, and it's you.

And if that ain't love then i don't know what love is. Perhaps you could teach me? (:

Love is but a wonderful thing.

What is love? i don't know, but love for me is in the form of you.

I know that love makes you vulnerable. But what doesn't put you at risk, is simply not worth the risk.

Time is our most precious value because what is passed cannot be undone. I will always make time for you. You will always be worth my time.

cus, every minutes like an hour, every hours like a day, every day last forever, but what else am i gonna do? i'll wait forever and a day for you.

Penguin love.

You could say i love you like a penguin.

Love works in many ways. I have always had doubt in the past with past relationships. But with you, i have no doubts, but many certainty's. I have security and i have confidence that we will see each other through. Love provides many challenges, none that i will dare walk away from. The only path i will walk, is a path with you. 

I love the way you smile, the way you smirk, the way you look at me, your silly jokes and clever remarks. I love the way you laugh, the way you kiss me, and the way your smell lingers on me. You are kind, you are sensible, you are faithful, and you are loving and beautiful.

If i was a penguin, you'd be that penguin for me. (: 

i want to... 3#

Take you out into the beautiful world and visit cities and beautiful landscapes.

we could walk slowly under the city lights and they would shine for us. But our love would be the brightest of them all.

 We could lay under the autumn tree's and watch the world move on without us. The leave's would fall slowly but time would still pass by too fast when i'm with you. 

I only want you.

I don't want nobody else loving you.

and i don't want nobody else loving me. This is our selfish love. All i want is you. All that i am is yours, and your's alone. 

Lucky.

I think i'm pretty lucky to have such an amazing/wonderful girlfriend. (:

If this ain't love, then i don't know what love is.

I am truly lucky to have you as my girlfriend, i must have done something right. (:

If you're a bird, then I'm a bird.

If you're a duck, then i'm a duck.

I want to be where you are. And i certainly want to be with you always. Our elements are opposites, fire and water, but that's what love is, unexplainable. 

You complement me well. I love how you are very open, honest, and enthusiastic about us. We've got a beautiful future ahead. (:

Love is in the air.

September 7th, or 12 whichever date means most to you is our date. 

We've already created many life long and precious memories I'd like to keep with me forever. You make happiness seem so easy to find. I appreciate the time we have, and I cherish every minute we spend together. You make every moment special, and you make me feel special. 

It seem's like i don't have to do much to be happy, because just being around you makes me happy. 

I am truly, madly, and deeply in love with you. 

I want to... 2#

I want to wake up every morning with you besides me. 

I'd watch you sleep peacefully and brush your hair off your face. Because I'd want to keep my most precious possession close to me always. You'll be the first sunshine to my day, everyday. 

Something new?

I've been thinking about trying something new. Something i wouldn't otherwise dare to do.

I've been thinking about trying a side cut, or a under cut, which ever one you prefer to call it. But i don't think my hair is long enough. I'm not very good looking with long hair haha. 

Anyway the reason for this sudden change is because i feel like this year is a year for changes, re-adjustment. So i'm either getting this done today, or saturday Morning :)

I smile to friends [=

and to you i smile sincerely. (:

I love how you always wear a smile when i see you, it looks good on you. (:

you + me = anything.

You've got that smile, that only heaven can make, i'll pray to God everyday, that you keep that smile. 

If you were me for a day, you'd realise how much i think about you. You'd watch "how i met your mother" so that you'd know what a sucker for love i am. You'd blog about yourself, because your all i think about. You'll pray for yourself because i always keep you in my prayers to God, And you'' know just how much you mean to me. (:

I want to... 1#

 Take you out for a romantic dinner with candles.

We could enjoy a 3 course meal, talk about us, watch the sunset and go for a stroll along the beach.

I'd treat you to wonderful things, and surprise you. 

There are so many things i wish we could do, this is just one. (:

The one that got away.

I think everyone has that someone that they really like who probably liked them back, but nothing ever happened, and they were always known as the one who got away.

Had a dream about her last night, which was totally unexpected, she asked me to go crabbing, but we just spoke. i woke myself up anyway, Maybe I'll see her tonight at the party, haven't seen her in almost two years. It'll be a good catch up. 

Blessed.

It's all about you, it's all about you Jesus, i'm sorry lord for the things i've made it, when it's all about you, it's all about you Jesus.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship. 

Blessed i am, loved i am, saved i am, forgiven i am, i have all these because of you lord, you are amazing, and ever so great, you are my eternal love and saviour, i love you Jesus, amen. 

Moments.

You know with every crush, you picture moments with them? romantic ones? action filled ones? something that you'd wish to do with them, be it an adventure or some sort of fantasy.

You'd picture that perfect moment, but it'd never happen. Even when the timing is right, the place is perfect, but the universe hasn't planned for you to be together. And everything falls into a disaster, your expectation isn't met, you are disappointed, and you leave hurt.

And the best thing about you is that there is no planning, we can do what ever we want, because we want the same thing, just to see each other. You brighten up my day, and you make it special, and i couldn't ask for more. When we see each other, it's like opening a box of chocolate, you never know what your gonna get. 

If what you have is love, then it's worth fighting for, you're not a fool for holding on, your a fool for letting go. I wish people didn't give up on love so easily. It's not something that comes along everyday or year, it's spontaneous and the best thing that could ever happen to anybody. 

To me, love is like a pet dog, you can chase it all you want when it gets out of the house, and it'll keep on running, you keep on chasing, but once you stop, it comes after you. (and then you take it home and eat it) haha jk. But not chasing after love, does not mean giving up on love, it just means, you are patient, and waiting for the right moment, and right person. Great things happen when you are facing your worse days. ;) so enjoy your worse days, and hope for the best. 

You make it easy when it's hard. (:

A relationship should be easy, simple. And on some level it has to just be easy. 

It's always been hard for me in the past, so many things getting in the way. And inside you actually knew that they weren't what you were looking for. You weren't prioritised, there was no equilibrium, people got in the way, they took you for granted, there were more bad times than the good, you weren't happy, you argue, you weren't content. And above all those, you still gave it a shot. 

A relationship should be easy, and simple. As awkward as our situation is, you make it easy. It feels right with you, and it's just never been like that with others. There's no way of seeing the future, but if things fall into the the right places, i couldn't be more sure that you are the one.

Being in a couple is hard, and committing and making sacrifices it's hard, but if it's the right person, then it's easy, looking at that girl and knowing that she's all you really want out of life should be the easiest thing in the world, and if it's not like that, then she's not the one. 

I love you. 

The script - Words

I wanted words, but all i heard was nothing.

What's the best thing you could give someone you love?

Your hand in marriage. 

What a very pretty wedding dress :O What's the next best thing you could give to them? probably the wedding ring haha, after that? no idea.

What's the best thing you could give a best friend? probably a compliment, or food haha.

Summer.

I wish it was summer right now. 

I wish i was outside, relaxing, lying in the sun, listening to music, day dreaming, or doing something relaxing. 

Hold on tight.

Love doesn't stay, it simply keeps on moving, therefore hold onto it for as long as you can. Because it's one long roller coaster ride.

or you could try taming it haha. 

all i can say is "Fudge!" 

What do i want to do right now? i want to read, study, workout, go for a drive, play a game of dota, talk to my brothers, talk to someone on the phone, have a dnm, will i do any of those tonight? probably not, thats the saddest part.

Whats wrong?

Something doesn't feel right.

I feel a little confused. Insecure, i don't know why. But i guess the best thing to do is to stop thinking. Maybe it's because i spent a beautiful day sitting on a chair. Maybe it's because i feel alone. 

I guess this is the feeling when you are devoid of love. Won't you give me strength and hold me in your embrace, i wish i was a better angel. I wish you were proud of me as a father is of his son. I need to do a righteous deed, one out of love, and not sympathy.

"As a child is fed and provided" now is the time for me to grow up and find my own deeds. Where will it take me? 

Girl Friend.

Here's a couple of pictures with me and my beautiful girlfriend. (:

At the botanic gardens.

The angry face, yet rosemey has a kinky face ;) haha

And to seal it off with a kiss <3

She completes me, and i dare to say, she is everything i've always wanted. She is now my past, present, and future (:

My desktop wallpaper (:

Corinthians 13:2

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

Angels fall too. You have showed me what it means to be loved and to love. (:

Love.

The love i receive from you certainly brings out the best of me. You are simply my last thought before i sleep, and the first thought when i wake. You are my morning and night drug, essential to my everyday life. You are my obsession. 

And as would any other addict, going two years without you would be near impossible. But the fact is, as soon as you start taking it again, the obsession will once again override. 

You bring out my wonderland. (:

The one.

Call me naive, or superstitious, but you just might be the one. 

In-fact, I hope you are. (: I've already fallen head over heels in love. haha. And if this was all just a dream, i'd go and make it a reality. 

Truth is.

I like to watch your expressions.

Just doing nothing with you makes me happy. I don't think i've liked anyone this much before. And i want to tell you these things, but i don't want to jump to the next chapter just yet. I don't want to miss anything with you (:

And it's funny because i'm sure we both know how we feel about each other. Thats the fun part haha. My friends are like, Peter "this is so not like you to be tongue tied", "what! you wussied out again?!" hahaha.

Tongue tied!

The moment i start thinking about us, is the moment i get tongue tied.

But my feelings are very true. And everything i want to say and do is just a giant knot. The upside is you can probably see me struggeling haha .

Let me take your breath away.

If love was a game, you would've already won. 

She's gonna be my girldfriend, she just doesn't know it yet. haha my friends know me too well, i'm cool like that haha. 

I think fate sets you up, but then it's all up to us to make it work. Fate is just an introduction, and the body and conclusion is up to us. 

You are my time.

Spending time with you makes me happy. 

It's been a while, but in the past I could never admit that I like someone, however, with you, I'm not afraid to get hurt. I think you are amazing [=

I'm head over heels for you.

I like you too much that it makes me nervous to sit close enough so that we are touching.

But we'll get there ;) you make me stutter.

"I go to speak my mind, forgetting what to say, you're the only one who makes me feel this way,
I don't know if I can even be me, Cause its so hard to be me when your next to me, If I could say so, I'd say what I'm feeling, but I can say so, my lips just tremble, I'm stuttering, oh oh oh. 

Endorphin.

You are the stimulus to my endorphin. 

What are you thinking about?

Me? haha.

I already like you more than i should. D;

If you like someone, somebody else probably does too.

If you don't make the move, somebody else probably will. 

You don't get a second chance unless you're meant to be.

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Diagnosed with love.

Zero Gravity.

Didn't know that i could feel the way that i do now. 

I'm not asking for an explanation, all i know is that you take me away.

Friends.

Friends can be hard on you, maybe they expect more from you than strangers. Strangers pretty much see you the way you want them to see you, you can't fool friends. That's what makes them friends. - Pretty little liars. 

Invert.

This is what i've been doing in my holidays (:

I've been practising my invert. It's not to this kind of degree yet, its moreso another 30 degrees upwards haha.  But i'll get there when my flexibility increases.

And i've been practising my Hollowback. Which is also not to this degree yet, but moreso getting there haha. I'll post up photo's of my freeze's when i can get someone to take it for me :D

Random fact #2

I'm usually a very talkative person. If I have nothing to say, if I am quiet, if it feels awkward, then I probably like you haha. 

But that doesn't mean I will say or do anything. Because I like to find out how much I like you. haha

Silent.

At times, you feel really strongly about something. You feel as if you have so much to say. And in some cases, so much more to say. But when the time comes, you either say too little, or nothing at all.

And it's the things you don't say that eats your chest away. It's the things you don't say that keep you awake at night. It's the thought of letting it out, expressing it the right way that holds you down.

I believe in some cases, where it is absolutely necessary we should just "stop thinking" and just "do it" before we confuse ourselves. (: