She said "They did that to you, you didnt have the intention"

I dont know nor do i understand why, but i told you the truth. I dont exactly trust you as much as my other friends, but you're the first i've ever told about it. The good thing is, you still dont believe me. (Y)
I am exactly what you thought i wasnt. believe it or not, i am. Mayb im just not as good as i was before, but im still here. and im probably still going to continue it.
Maybe its because you cant picture me in that character. it doesnt matter, im just glad you didnt judge me when and after i told you. Actually thats the best thing about you, you havnt judged me since the day we met, and i hope it stays that way. well thanks for calling anyway, its always good to talk. (Y)

Right, now im about to go to badminton, im so excited!!!


Inspiring isnt it? All sorts of people can play, i mean if he can play, im quite sure some people can atleast give it a shot, i wont name names, but you know who you are lol, and you'll be reading this post im sure of it *-*. And to another person that plays with me, i mean if he can run and play, im sure you can aswell, stupid lame partner lol XD

I brought them to life. *-*

Its 2:02am and time is still trying to communicate to me. I still have no idea what its trying to say, but im still seeing whackness in the digits.

And i think this Influenza has made me skinnier, and making me very slack.

After sharing my lifes story with vic for the past 4 hours on my gay mobile which has gay reception when i lye down, i think i've realised that i talk about myself way too much, from this day foward, i'll try and focus on others.

Its funny, because i've told so many people about my life, but when you explain everything to someone whose whack in the head, you get answers that have never been suggested. Its weird to say, but i havnt really put much thought into a certain past, until tonight, i found that, a certain event, was indeed my fault.

So in other words, i have a confession to make. That time, what i did, was somebody else. Im, sorry.

Guys PMS more than Girls? without the Hormones?

Last night, i met someone who was almost in the same shoes as me, but probably in a worse state. I dont know if i was suppose to be there to help him emotionally, or spiritually, but all i know is, i helped him.

We shared some of our fudged up past and how we got done over. It was quite a surprise actually, i never thought he had that type of mind, we actually think quite alike, but his younger by a couple of years, so his still inexperienced and not tolerating things well enough.

Was quite interesting what he said though,"See you're lucky because, mine is there and yours is here, you can do something about it, i cant".

We somehow began talking about music, and he began singing "Circle - Marques Houston", and i was like omg, that song, yeh, i see where you're coming from. The thing was, i understood him, all his fudgedness.

See, i just made a powerful ally, or will it fuck up my life? I even tried bringing religion into the topic >.<>

Yeah, you know what's funny? Seems every time I try to forget about you My feelings pull you back in.

You know ?cause I got somebody else, And you got somebody else. But you and I both know what it really is, But still, you know what I'm sayin? B?

Ran across a picture you took of me and it got me thinkin?? Bout how we used to be, it was just you and me, Still hear you say you love me, put no one else above me, But that was back then, now you're just a memory

If I didn't go away to school then where would we be? Probably still together and somewhere happy, If I'm supposed to be moved on, in a new relationship strong, Then why are you still hauntin' me?

Fudge man, when he just randomly starting singing that, i swear, my gay radar ticked for a second, and then it stopped, quite relieved. I had no idea what he was singing until he got to the chorus lmao.

I think last night, Qouc and me were like the only sobers. I was sick and couldnt talk much, nor drink, and Qouc was the driver, so yeh, and i think i made him sick >.<,

Last night, bloody everyone who drank, went into a emo pit, it was like a party of chase the depressed and cure them. Some guy (Decklin) kept asking me to hit him, tried starting a fight with me and Qouc. We're friends but he was wasted so, we didnt take him on. And Vivian, i swear shes gona be a perfect mother when she grows up, she took care of jacky so much, i kinda felt bad watching. Everyone was pmsed, and Mj was full raging for a bit, i recall her saying "man yu guys pms way more then girls" and i was like, no shit. ToT

Never back down. *-*

This is what she said to me last night.
You know Peter, your being seen as the bad guy because you wont get your act straight.
Infact, you know you dont even need to be with me or talking to me right now, because you already know what your doing. you have the answers, and you should put it down to motion.

Think of it like this, you're in a pitch black hole and everybody whose tried to rescue you, you've cut their rope. Why? because you've grown comfortable in it. You dont want to be rescued, well you do, but through a different sense. You were given 4 opportunities on Saturday, you cut them all off, Peter opportunities dont come forever. Infact you dont even need anybodys help, your strong enough to just walk out of that pitch, yet you dont want to, you're living with that principal of yours again. Why cant you make exceptions? or just forget the principal?

You know, your getting done, I never thought you would ever reach this stage, remember that time when you said "No matter how or why you fall down, pick yourself up as soon as possible, because otherwise you wont want to get back up, and dont rely on others because you dont know when they'll realise and that nobody can pick you up as fast as you can yourself". haha i let everyone get to me, trying to help others before solving my puzzle first, you're lucky, because this is the first time you'll ever witness me fall like this. Now watch me rise and reign again. I forgot how fun it was to screw around and mess with my rep.

Thanks Sharon and Vi.

Never back down. *-*

Xie Xie. (:

Thank You Sarah and Shanks aka Cheryl.

God bless.

Who was that girl? *-*

Anyway, after meeting that amazing man, i could say he really inspired me. It shows what Christ can do to strengthen your faith.
After asking him many questions and not wasting anytime of understanding his life, i thought i had all my questions aswered to a man who i believed was a split image of a piece of me.

He was white but that doesnt change the fact that his life was quite similar to mine, even the secrets i keep to myself. But 3 hours after meeting that man, it hit me, i was like fudge!!!!! he had an asian wife O_ o i should have asked what her name was lol XD

Thank you Lord, for that blessful insight and the Cross earing. <3
Praise the lord, Amen. <3

"Through his words, we are healed".
Isaiah 53:5-

The day before my Bday. (:

It all happend around 7pm at night, after studying at the library and thinking man tommorow is gonna suck, such crap schedules...
well anyway this is what happend.


well there you are xD
8/04/2009
9:13:57 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
hello there
8/04/2009
9:14:23 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
how was your day?
8/04/2009
9:14:24 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
so howve you been?? you didnt say much in your msgs ;p
8/04/2009
9:15:41 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
sick, tiredness, bordom, anger and whackness was my week, pretty crap apart from an amazing gift i got which was like from Christ id like to think lol
8/04/2009
9:15:55 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
really whack day on Monday
8/04/2009
9:16:03 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
i was at the library nd i caught the bus home
8/04/2009
9:16:10 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
half way through the trip
8/04/2009
9:16:15 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
this guy taps my feet
8/04/2009
9:16:23 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he sais "sorry about that"
8/04/2009
9:16:32 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i said "thats okay, dont worry bout it"
8/04/2009
9:16:37 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he begins talking to me
8/04/2009
9:16:45 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and his like where were you born?
8/04/2009
9:16:53 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
uhhuh
8/04/2009
9:16:53 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i said i was born here, yourself?
8/04/2009
9:17:20 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he said well i dont really get askd that much becasue i look aussie, but im german mate
8/04/2009
9:17:25 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i was like nice (Y)
8/04/2009
9:17:40 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i said "btw, would you happen to be religious?"
8/04/2009
9:17:51 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
i noticed you have a cross earing on your right ear
8/04/2009
9:18:01 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he said, yeh im a Christian
8/04/2009
9:18:15 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i said haha yeh me2, and i askd how long his been a Christian
8/04/2009
9:18:21 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
he said his been one for 15years
8/04/2009
9:18:37 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
i askd him to come to paradise church
8/04/2009
9:18:54 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he said he goes to the one in paravista and that his pastor use to be someone from paradise
8/04/2009
9:19:01 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and we began talking more about Christ
8/04/2009
9:19:31 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and then i askd how he came to Christ
8/04/2009
9:19:50 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he said a couple of years ago, him and his wives got divorced and they had a son
8/04/2009
9:20:15 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and his son went to a kindy and the teacher kept saying "Peter, you should come to church"
8/04/2009
9:20:20 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i was like, wait, whats your name?
8/04/2009
9:20:32 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he said Peter and i was like me2, and hi5'd lol
8/04/2009
9:21:04 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and then he continued his story, he was like well my 5 year old son, went to youth with his friends and he kept telling me to go, so one day i went and i thoguht it was brilliant
8/04/2009
9:21:20 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he mentioned that his son was asian and i was like wait is your wife asian?
8/04/2009
9:21:26 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he was like yeh
8/04/2009
9:21:42 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i said, actualy i use to be buddhist, but it didnt make sense when i studied it so yeh
8/04/2009
9:21:57 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he was like, yeh i use to be buddist aswell, i studied it in Tibet
8/04/2009
9:22:05 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i was like O_o whack
8/04/2009
9:22:23 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and then we were talking about other religions compared to Christ
8/04/2009
9:22:34 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
uhhuh
8/04/2009
9:22:36 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and i said i use to have a cross earing aswell but i think my friend too kit
8/04/2009
9:23:03 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and my stop was the next stop, and he gave me one of his cross earings cus he had 2, and i think its real gold O_ o
8/04/2009
9:23:27 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
and he said, we'll probably never see each otehr again, but its been a pleasure to meet yu
8/04/2009
9:23:39 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
it felt like i was talking to a part of myself O_ o
8/04/2009
9:23:54 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
hey thats heaps cool xD
8/04/2009
9:24:02 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
yeh the day b4 my bday aswell, whack day
8/04/2009
9:24:14 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
you know
8/04/2009
9:24:23 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
if i were talking to the you like 6 months ago
8/04/2009
9:24:30 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
you'd be telling me how this is a sign for something
8/04/2009
9:24:34 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
xD
8/04/2009
9:24:53 PM
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
zoe
yeh but this is too whack for me to assume its something above lol
8/04/2009
9:25:17 PM
zoe
† (F)#3 - Peter (:
hahahaha cool xD

So retarded im reading it and i dont even know who is who talking, msn is gay lol ahwell, i'll upload a pic of it soon.

FUCKED UP BDAY.

I cant believe i cried today. Sarah you're the first person to see me cry, i feel so little as a man now.

I cant believe i pmsed at the last second, man i wish i could just kill 1-3 people and not be judged.

Old Photoes.

Yeh, your not as innocent as you say you are. Evidence of alcohol consuption and smoking weed in the girls bathroom right behind you.

Found a whack picture of Cheryl getting high *-* lol

The day i stole your Hair tie and Sarahs lol

I look somewhat depressed? o.o

Last years whackness.

Well i couldnt find the USB cable for last years dodgy whack photoes, but only recently i discovered my laptop had a memories card insert thing here. so here are some whack photoes :D

Coming from the Peter and Sharons world peace thing. lol these are the people that hugged us. and that were willing to take a picture with us after.



This Chick actualy asked if i wanted to hug her lol


Was too afraid to hug this guy XD


Those two were idiots, they didnt wana take a pic with us, so i told sharon to go behind them :P


This guy had trouble understanding english, cudnt explain wat a hug was, he thought sharon was hitting on him lol


Some Adelaide uni student who recomended us to go to Barsmith to get more photoes.


Group hug.


This guy was pretty nice lol


These guys praised us that we were doing something good lol, i almost thought they were queer O_ o with all respect.


His partner in crime lol


Sharons friend.

This guy hesitated on us like 3 times lol

Luke from marietville didnt know who he was now i do lol

Me and Raf :D

Raf and Sharon

Sharon and vanta

Me and Adrian

Sharon and adrian

Another random.

Me and martin, he was in a rush, arguement with mary

Martin and Sharon, still in a rush, chasing after her.

This guy was quite hesitant aswell ==

This guy didnt want to at first, kept saying his gf was coming and was worried what she might think lol but we got him XD

Another random

Same guy

Random

Random

Me & Chris

Me and Steph *-* met her in China town playing 13 lol, shes awsome.

Sharon and Chris

Sharon and Steph

Must save her. D:

Sarah looks so upset these days, i must do something to take her mind of crap D;

Havnt seen her go off like this in ages. D;

I wonder... who you are.

Im slowly beginning to doubt, who you say you are.