Something about you. †

Love is a beautiful thing.

2012-01-15T20:18:00.000+10:30

You make love beautiful.

Love means nothing without you.

You are my love. (:

Cherry Ripe Cake.

2012-01-15T20:07:00.001+10:30

On Christmas day, my girlfriend baked me a cherry ripe cake.

I thought it was really sweet of her, it tasted really sweet, full of chocolate and love ;) haha

I am so grateful to have such a thoughtful and considerate girlfriend, i know i'm still late on the Christmas present and all but it's because i'm stuck between 3 things haha, I haven't forgotten. D;

I could go for some Cherry ripe cake right now haha, Thank you dear, i love you (:

Beautiful.

2012-01-15T20:00:00.000+10:30

You are the most beautiful person i know,

and wearing the perfect dress doesn't make you beautiful, you wearing the dress makes it beautiful. (:

I know that you are the most beautiful thing in my life, and a day without you is like a day without the sun. Or the night without the moon. (:

Tough times.

2012-01-15T19:51:00.000+10:30

Every relationship has their obstacles. Some bigger than the other, some more riskier, and some which we don't know how to face.

The idea is that, the more obstacles we overcome, the bigger they get and more complex they become, we get more involved and we become uncertain, we doubt, we argue, we say things we don't mean, we do stupid things, we lie, we hurt, and we forget how to trust.

And i truly believe that if two people are madly in love, they can have all these and still be madly and passionately in love. I think that if you love someone, you should never let them face their obstacles alone. Maybe you can't fix it, but just being there is enough. (:

I'll always try my best to be there for you when i can. (:

This time last year....

2012-01-15T19:39:00.000+10:30

This time last year, i was camping at Victor harbour with my best friends. It was indeed a wonderful period of my life and a very memorable one at that. We shared many memories, played many games, and ate together like a family.

And currently today, i am in a beautiful relationship with such a beautiful girl. I didn't think i'd be where i am today so fast. Sure, i thought about it, day dreamed about it, and now here i am. In a very fullfilling relationship. I wonder what next year holds at this time. (;

Hopes and Dreams.

2012-01-15T19:30:00.000+10:30

One day we will travel the world and we'll do many things together. (:

Such as, diving in the majestic waters of Vanuatu :D

Kanoe-ing in random beautiful places haha.

I'm so happy I've found someone who i can share my life with, someone to share my feelings with and life's excitements. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you and go on adventures together. (:

2012

2012-01-15T19:04:00.000+10:30

Happy belated new years blog people haha.

So what did i get up to on new years? Well i finally had the chance to follow tradition, i had my new years kiss right after the count down with my beautiful girlfriend. (:

We met up 30minutes before the count down, and watched some fireworks outside her house whilst radio in the car was doing the countdown. I gotta admit it was pretty exciting, it was a very memorable experience. haha.

Anyway, Happy new years folks and hope you all got to spend it with your loved one too. I know i was privileged enough to spend it with the girl of my dreams on this very special day.

2012 is looking good so far. (:

Forever.

2011-11-07T01:32:00.000+10:30

I haven't felt this aching pain for a long while. It's that feeling where you feel like your about to lose something important. Despite how strongly and firmly you hold onto it, there's not much you can do. You just have to wait it out and hope for the best.

How do you tell someone you want to spend the rest of your days with them and hope that they believe you. You can't, you just have to take their word for it. And that's the hardest thing about making life-changing decisions, you can only take their word for it. Or you could go with your instincts and do whatever the heck makes you happy.

Tough times are coming, and high tides, things are looking ugly, but the thought of having you near is all i need. Knowing that you value me as much as i value you helps me stay strong. I haven't felt this vulnerable for so long. I haven't wanted anything this much, and i haven't felt this strongly about anyone before.

How can i let the most valuable thing i hold go? I could never. How could i let go of love? I won't.

Can't think of a inspiring way to end this blog, too much on my mind, i'll think of something next time maybe haha.

What you mean to me.

2011-11-06T03:25:00.001+10:30

To me, you are the reason i stay up so late at night, you keep me up, your the reason i wake up in the morning, the reason i go to uni. There's not a minute that goes by without you in a thought. You're the first thought to my morning, and the last thought to my night.

You are now my happiness, my love, and my life.

I've always had that simple thought, where searching for your soul-mate was the most important thing because, once you found them, everything would be easy, and it would all fall into place. But what i've realised is that, that is only the first step to happiness.

Everything changes, and things get in your way, but at the end of the day, she's all you want to see. You come across obstacles which could make or break your relationship, but the key to getting pass it is by going through it together not by yourself. Because trying to get pass it by yourself is what single people do.

Loving you is the best thing i've done. You're the kind of person i want to wake up with by my side, the kind of person i'd make breakfast and coffee for. The kind of person i'd travel the world with, the kind of person i'd take to church on a Sunday morning and the kind of person i'd grow old with.

Tell me i'm naive, but i know what i want, and it's you.

And if that ain't love then i don't know what love is. Perhaps you could teach me? (:

Love is but a wonderful thing.

2011-10-26T22:59:00.000+10:30

What is love? i don't know, but love for me is in the form of you.

I know that love makes you vulnerable. But what doesn't put you at risk, is simply not worth the risk.

Time is our most precious value because what is passed cannot be undone. I will always make time for you. You will always be worth my time.

cus, every minutes like an hour, every hours like a day, every day last forever, but what else am i gonna do? i'll wait forever and a day for you.

Penguin love.

2011-10-26T22:47:00.000+10:30

You could say i love you like a penguin.

Love works in many ways. I have always had doubt in the past with past relationships. But with you, i have no doubts, but many certainty's. I have security and i have confidence that we will see each other through. Love provides many challenges, none that i will dare walk away from. The only path i will walk, is a path with you.

I love the way you smile, the way you smirk, the way you look at me, your silly jokes and clever remarks. I love the way you laugh, the way you kiss me, and the way your smell lingers on me. You are kind, you are sensible, you are faithful, and you are loving and beautiful.

If i was a penguin, you'd be that penguin for me. (:

i want to... 3#

2011-10-26T22:30:00.000+10:30

Take you out into the beautiful world and visit cities and beautiful landscapes.

we could walk slowly under the city lights and they would shine for us. But our love would be the brightest of them all.

We could lay under the autumn tree's and watch the world move on without us. The leave's would fall slowly but time would still pass by too fast when i'm with you.

I only want you.

2011-10-26T22:17:00.000+10:30

I don't want nobody else loving you.

and i don't want nobody else loving me. This is our selfish love. All i want is you. All that i am is yours, and your's alone.

Lucky.

2011-10-20T18:31:00.000+10:30

I think i'm pretty lucky to have such an amazing/wonderful girlfriend. (:

If this ain't love, then i don't know what love is.

I am truly lucky to have you as my girlfriend, i must have done something right. (:

If you're a bird, then I'm a bird.

2011-10-14T16:37:00.000+10:30

If you're a duck, then i'm a duck.

I want to be where you are. And i certainly want to be with you always. Our elements are opposites, fire and water, but that's what love is, unexplainable.

You complement me well. I love how you are very open, honest, and enthusiastic about us. We've got a beautiful future ahead. (:

Love is in the air.

2011-10-14T16:06:00.000+10:30

September 7th, or 12 whichever date means most to you is our date.

We've already created many life long and precious memories I'd like to keep with me forever. You make happiness seem so easy to find. I appreciate the time we have, and I cherish every minute we spend together. You make every moment special, and you make me feel special.

It seem's like i don't have to do much to be happy, because just being around you makes me happy.

I am truly, madly, and deeply in love with you.

I want to... 2#

2011-10-14T15:35:00.001+10:30

I want to wake up every morning with you besides me.

I'd watch you sleep peacefully and brush your hair off your face. Because I'd want to keep my most precious possession close to me always. You'll be the first sunshine to my day, everyday.

Something new?

2011-10-14T14:56:00.000+10:30

I've been thinking about trying something new. Something i wouldn't otherwise dare to do.

I've been thinking about trying a side cut, or a under cut, which ever one you prefer to call it. But i don't think my hair is long enough. I'm not very good looking with long hair haha.

Anyway the reason for this sudden change is because i feel like this year is a year for changes, re-adjustment. So i'm either getting this done today, or saturday Morning :)

I smile to friends [=

2011-09-30T20:47:00.000+09:30

and to you i smile sincerely. (:

I love how you always wear a smile when i see you, it looks good on you. (:

you + me = anything.

2011-09-30T20:41:00.000+09:30

You've got that smile, that only heaven can make, i'll pray to God everyday, that you keep that smile.

If you were me for a day, you'd realise how much i think about you. You'd watch "how i met your mother" so that you'd know what a sucker for love i am. You'd blog about yourself, because your all i think about. You'll pray for yourself because i always keep you in my prayers to God, And you'' know just how much you mean to me. (:

I want to... 1#

2011-09-30T20:14:00.001+09:30

Take you out for a romantic dinner with candles.

We could enjoy a 3 course meal, talk about us, watch the sunset and go for a stroll along the beach.

I'd treat you to wonderful things, and surprise you.

There are so many things i wish we could do, this is just one. (:

The one that got away.

2011-09-30T10:27:00.000+09:30

I think everyone has that someone that they really like who probably liked them back, but nothing ever happened, and they were always known as the one who got away.

Had a dream about her last night, which was totally unexpected, she asked me to go crabbing, but we just spoke. i woke myself up anyway, Maybe I'll see her tonight at the party, haven't seen her in almost two years. It'll be a good catch up.

Blessed.

2011-09-30T00:35:00.000+09:30

It's all about you, it's all about you Jesus, i'm sorry lord for the things i've made it, when it's all about you, it's all about you Jesus.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship.

Blessed i am, loved i am, saved i am, forgiven i am, i have all these because of you lord, you are amazing, and ever so great, you are my eternal love and saviour, i love you Jesus, amen.

Moments.

2011-09-29T22:41:00.000+09:30

You know with every crush, you picture moments with them? romantic ones? action filled ones? something that you'd wish to do with them, be it an adventure or some sort of fantasy.

You'd picture that perfect moment, but it'd never happen. Even when the timing is right, the place is perfect, but the universe hasn't planned for you to be together. And everything falls into a disaster, your expectation isn't met, you are disappointed, and you leave hurt.

And the best thing about you is that there is no planning, we can do what ever we want, because we want the same thing, just to see each other. You brighten up my day, and you make it special, and i couldn't ask for more. When we see each other, it's like opening a box of chocolate, you never know what your gonna get.

If what you have is love, then it's worth fighting for, you're not a fool for holding on, your a fool for letting go. I wish people didn't give up on love so easily. It's not something that comes along everyday or year, it's spontaneous and the best thing that could ever happen to anybody.

To me, love is like a pet dog, you can chase it all you want when it gets out of the house, and it'll keep on running, you keep on chasing, but once you stop, it comes after you. (and then you take it home and eat it) haha jk. But not chasing after love, does not mean giving up on love, it just means, you are patient, and waiting for the right moment, and right person. Great things happen when you are facing your worse days. ;) so enjoy your worse days, and hope for the best.

You make it easy when it's hard. (:

2011-09-29T22:05:00.001+09:30

A relationship should be easy, simple. And on some level it has to just be easy.

It's always been hard for me in the past, so many things getting in the way. And inside you actually knew that they weren't what you were looking for. You weren't prioritised, there was no equilibrium, people got in the way, they took you for granted, there were more bad times than the good, you weren't happy, you argue, you weren't content. And above all those, you still gave it a shot.

A relationship should be easy, and simple. As awkward as our situation is, you make it easy. It feels right with you, and it's just never been like that with others. There's no way of seeing the future, but if things fall into the the right places, i couldn't be more sure that you are the one.

Being in a couple is hard, and committing and making sacrifices it's hard, but if it's the right person, then it's easy, looking at that girl and knowing that she's all you really want out of life should be the easiest thing in the world, and if it's not like that, then she's not the one.

I love you.

The script - Words

2011-09-22T22:07:00.000+09:30

I wanted words, but all i heard was nothing.

What's the best thing you could give someone you love?

2011-09-18T19:54:00.000+09:30

Your hand in marriage.

What a very pretty wedding dress :O What's the next best thing you could give to them? probably the wedding ring haha, after that? no idea.

What's the best thing you could give a best friend? probably a compliment, or food haha.

Summer.

2011-09-18T18:32:00.000+09:30

I wish it was summer right now.

I wish i was outside, relaxing, lying in the sun, listening to music, day dreaming, or doing something relaxing.

Hold on tight.

2011-09-18T18:23:00.000+09:30

Love doesn't stay, it simply keeps on moving, therefore hold onto it for as long as you can. Because it's one long roller coaster ride.

or you could try taming it haha.

all i can say is "Fudge!"

What do i want to do right now? i want to read, study, workout, go for a drive, play a game of dota, talk to my brothers, talk to someone on the phone, have a dnm, will i do any of those tonight? probably not, thats the saddest part.

Whats wrong?

2011-09-18T17:58:00.000+09:30

Something doesn't feel right.

I feel a little confused. Insecure, i don't know why. But i guess the best thing to do is to stop thinking. Maybe it's because i spent a beautiful day sitting on a chair. Maybe it's because i feel alone.

I guess this is the feeling when you are devoid of love. Won't you give me strength and hold me in your embrace, i wish i was a better angel. I wish you were proud of me as a father is of his son. I need to do a righteous deed, one out of love, and not sympathy.

"As a child is fed and provided" now is the time for me to grow up and find my own deeds. Where will it take me?

Girl Friend.

2011-09-17T12:41:00.000+09:30

Here's a couple of pictures with me and my beautiful girlfriend. (:

At the botanic gardens.

The angry face, yet rosemey has a kinky face ;) haha

And to seal it off with a kiss <3

She completes me, and i dare to say, she is everything i've always wanted. She is now my past, present, and future (:

My desktop wallpaper (:

Corinthians 13:2

2011-09-16T11:15:00.000+09:30

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

Angels fall too. You have showed me what it means to be loved and to love. (:

Love.

2011-09-16T10:36:00.000+09:30

The love i receive from you certainly brings out the best of me. You are simply my last thought before i sleep, and the first thought when i wake. You are my morning and night drug, essential to my everyday life. You are my obsession.

And as would any other addict, going two years without you would be near impossible. But the fact is, as soon as you start taking it again, the obsession will once again override.

You bring out my wonderland. (:

The one.

2011-09-14T13:04:00.000+09:30

Call me naive, or superstitious, but you just might be the one.

In-fact, I hope you are. (: I've already fallen head over heels in love. haha. And if this was all just a dream, i'd go and make it a reality.

Truth is.

2011-08-29T22:10:00.000+09:30

I like to watch your expressions.

Just doing nothing with you makes me happy. I don't think i've liked anyone this much before. And i want to tell you these things, but i don't want to jump to the next chapter just yet. I don't want to miss anything with you (:

And it's funny because i'm sure we both know how we feel about each other. Thats the fun part haha. My friends are like, Peter "this is so not like you to be tongue tied", "what! you wussied out again?!" hahaha.

Tongue tied!

2011-08-29T21:58:00.000+09:30

The moment i start thinking about us, is the moment i get tongue tied.

But my feelings are very true. And everything i want to say and do is just a giant knot. The upside is you can probably see me struggeling haha .

Let me take your breath away.

2011-08-25T10:13:00.000+09:30

If love was a game, you would've already won.

She's gonna be my girldfriend, she just doesn't know it yet. haha my friends know me too well, i'm cool like that haha.

I think fate sets you up, but then it's all up to us to make it work. Fate is just an introduction, and the body and conclusion is up to us.

You are my time.

2011-08-24T00:58:00.000+09:30

Spending time with you makes me happy.

It's been a while, but in the past I could never admit that I like someone, however, with you, I'm not afraid to get hurt. I think you are amazing [=

I'm head over heels for you.

2011-08-22T18:19:00.000+09:30

I like you too much that it makes me nervous to sit close enough so that we are touching.

But we'll get there ;) you make me stutter.

"I go to speak my mind, forgetting what to say, you're the only one who makes me feel this way,
I don't know if I can even be me, Cause its so hard to be me when your next to me, If I could say so, I'd say what I'm feeling, but I can say so, my lips just tremble, I'm stuttering, oh oh oh.

Endorphin.

2011-08-21T13:52:00.000+09:30

You are the stimulus to my endorphin.

What are you thinking about?

2011-08-18T00:12:00.000+09:30

Me? haha.

I already like you more than i should. D;

If you like someone, somebody else probably does too.

2011-08-17T23:47:00.000+09:30

If you don't make the move, somebody else probably will.

You don't get a second chance unless you're meant to be.

formspring.me

2011-08-17T23:26:00.001+09:30

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/KingofJerks

Diagnosed with love.

2011-08-17T23:21:00.000+09:30

Zero Gravity.

2011-08-17T22:00:00.000+09:30

Didn't know that i could feel the way that i do now.

I'm not asking for an explanation, all i know is that you take me away.

Friends.

2011-07-23T13:28:00.000+09:30

Friends can be hard on you, maybe they expect more from you than strangers. Strangers pretty much see you the way you want them to see you, you can't fool friends. That's what makes them friends. - Pretty little liars.

Invert.

2011-07-15T15:17:00.000+09:30

This is what i've been doing in my holidays (:

I've been practising my invert. It's not to this kind of degree yet, its moreso another 30 degrees upwards haha. But i'll get there when my flexibility increases.

And i've been practising my Hollowback. Which is also not to this degree yet, but moreso getting there haha. I'll post up photo's of my freeze's when i can get someone to take it for me :D

Random fact #2

2011-07-09T01:27:00.000+09:30

I'm usually a very talkative person. If I have nothing to say, if I am quiet, if it feels awkward, then I probably like you haha.

But that doesn't mean I will say or do anything. Because I like to find out how much I like you. haha

Silent.

2011-07-09T01:17:00.000+09:30

At times, you feel really strongly about something. You feel as if you have so much to say. And in some cases, so much more to say. But when the time comes, you either say too little, or nothing at all.

And it's the things you don't say that eats your chest away. It's the things you don't say that keep you awake at night. It's the thought of letting it out, expressing it the right way that holds you down.

I believe in some cases, where it is absolutely necessary we should just "stop thinking" and just "do it" before we confuse ourselves. (:

Thing's that make me Happy. (:

2011-07-09T01:08:00.000+09:30

Friends
Food
A funny joke
Singing
Day dreaming
Sunshine
Catching a smile from a random
Making someone laugh
Receiving a compliment
DnM's
Anything where your one on one (shopping, eating, walking, watching)
Someone that understands.

At times we think we're in love, but it's just what we want.

2011-07-08T22:11:00.000+09:30

It's just what we need, it's what we're searching for.
Love is scary, it takes us to unfamiliar territories. It makes us afraid to embrace, because it forces us to face reality.

Re-connecting!

2011-07-07T02:57:00.000+09:30

It's been recent that I've began to notice, but I think God is answering my prayers, and trying to re-connect with me. I've had several insights, and I've learnt why I am so hard on myself. I keep trying to save everyone around me, trying to make them laugh, or remind them for a moment that they are something special. It's weird, I know. I must sound crazy to you right now. Expressing myself. And believe me, I feel as awkward as you do, talking spiritual. More so seeing another side of me, a sensitive side.

Just let me float for a while.

FRIEND.

2011-07-07T02:49:00.000+09:30

It's good to have a good friend to talk to. Someone you can trust. Someone who is mutual, and understanding. Someone who shares the same values, and principals. Someone who see's through all my lies, and intentions. Someone who understands that despite what you see on the outside, that everything inside is pure.

I may come across as many things. And it's those who recognise me for my true intentions that I get close to. Not to those that only see me as just another friend. It may be hard to see it, but few people know just how great of a person I am. Now I'm not being arrogant, but I am one of a kind. Way better than the average.

There are about 5 people who know me just the way I am. Just because they chose to get to know me.

Character.

2011-07-07T02:34:00.000+09:30

It's amazing how certain circumstances can bring out a change of character in oneself. Perhaps it's always been there, or perhaps it's been awaken. More so it's because certain people take you for granted for what your worth as a whole. It's because certain people aren't after the type of person you are but the type of benefits your relationship brings them. Whether it be, reputation, new friends, events, benefits.

And it's after accepting all the shit that's gone down, to realise that this relationship is never gonna change. That you finally snap and decide to fight for what you deserve. Respect. I don't have the time to care for everyone around me any more, nor do I have the time to try to fix everything with an apology that isn't deserved.

I'm a very reasonable person at that. I'm forgiving, yet hard to forgive and forget. I move on when needed. But to think that I'll lower my worth to someone/or people that take me for granted. I don't think so.

This has brought out another character in me. The one I've been holding back. I use to be such a good Christian, such a good person. And then you get those people that step all over you and take you for granted.

I use to have so much love. May be God will bring me back to the happy times.

You've only done wrong, if you feel guilty. And I don't feel guilty, nor do I feel righteous.

I'm Back.

2011-05-20T13:32:00.000+09:30

I've been aware that i can shut off whatever i feel, when i make up my mind. And right now, I've made up my mind. (:

I am who i will always be. Your question mark.

I'm Weak.

2011-05-18T01:33:00.000+09:30

Right now i feel so weak, emotionally, mentally. So I've been working out a lot. It makes me feel stronger about myself. I hate feeling weak, because most the time i'm standing on-top of the world. But right now, the world is standing on top of me.

I feel like I'm being trampled on. I've always been stronger than this. I've never broken down. But right now, it feels as if, i'm losing it. People are noticing, I'm in a wreck. Every time i'm offered help, i refuse.

And i know they have the best interest in heart, but I've grown up supporting myself without the help of others. And i hate that nobody was there for me when i was young. Yeh, i have a problem, and it's because i'm stubborn. I wish i wasn't alone.

I know it's hard to comprehend, me? alone? I have tonnes of friends, and i'm a nice guy. But the truth of the matter is, I've always felt alone. Maybe its the fact that my mum and dad was never there for me. And i think the reason i'm feeling all this now is because I'm about to give up.

I just need a little push on the back, without knowing someone is behind me.

Shades of Grey.

2011-05-18T01:16:00.000+09:30

You know that feeling? the one you feel, but don't ever do anything about? The one that aches, and spreads like wildfire? The one that covers your eyes in shades of grey?

You know what i'm talking about.

Superman isn't suppose to feel emotional right? I'm not sure why, but recently I've been feeling really vulnerable, it's like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, and the longer i hold it up, the more collateral damage i take.

I like to think that everyone has someone around them, that suppresses their true feelings. That makes them forget for a moment, that they're tied down. I'll admit this here, and i hope she doesn't read my blog, because it's gonna be a pain in the ass to admit it. But i think mine is Kim.

Everyone should have someone to talk to about life in general. Right now, mine is Clara, for some reason, we're very similar. And usually this person changes, or varies depending on the circumstance. But regardless, whats important is that, at some point in your life, you have to let your own guard down, you have to open up, take the risk, and trust that your friend will understand.

Life was never meant to be dealt with alone. It was meant to be shared. Maybe i'll be-able to open up again.

Un-finished.

2011-05-17T21:36:00.000+09:30

Most of the time it's just too difficult, or too scary. It's only once you've stopped, that you realize how hard it is to start again. So you force yourself not to want it, but it's always there, and until you Finnish it, it will always be.

I need to finish what I've started. I should, but i don't think i can, right now anyway. (:

How do i get the biscuit Pan?

2011-05-17T03:03:00.000+09:30

So the thing about me is. I have a expectation of everyone. I expect everyone to treat me, and respect me the same way i value them. And maybe thats childish but it means a lot to me.

I'm not usually interested in people, but when i am, you will know it. The thing is, just as i get to know someone who i'm interested in. I get the feeling they're not who i think they are. Because lets face it, we all have different faces in different shades. And what i felt from what i saw, was something i hoped you weren't.

Maybe there's a possibility that i'm wrong this time, but I've been disappointed yet again. Nobody ever plays the right cards long enough to see what happens next.

(You gotta risk it, to get the biscuit).

Overwhelmed.

2011-05-17T02:42:00.000+09:30

I'm not sure what exactly happened. But something did, and it wasn't pleasant.

It just got me thinking. I thought about it. I distracted myself. I avoided it. but none the less, it still remains, theres nothing i want to do about it.

because it kinda hurts.

maybe theres too much on my mind at the moment, i don't know. But theres a little bit of me that wants to give in.

Truth Fact:1 - something about me.

2011-05-02T02:24:00.000+09:30

Here's something i'm gonna chuck out into the world, because i think it's true. (maybe it'll fly away).

I think i have a problem (a pickle if you must). I'm kinda afraid to open up and express myself. It's kinda girly to say such a thing. But every time i do, i lose someone i love/care about a lot. The risk is just overwhelming.

Unless you don't understand me, my words are silent.

There's no explanation...

2011-05-02T02:14:00.000+09:30

but something about you, makes me feel right.

kinda makes me happy, maybe i admire you. Because you've done so well.

2011-04-14T01:50:00.000+09:30

"Everybody walks by without having the intention to stay, but really, we're just looking for the slightest reason to stay"

Thanks to those who have given me a reason, to stay. [=

Thinks to myself* There really are some amazing people in the world.

i wish i was more helpful to the needy.

Happy Birthday Pan [=

2011-04-14T01:11:00.000+09:30

"make visible what, without you, might perhaps, never have been seen"

I have never stopped to think about how thankful i am to myself. I have always thanked others, thanked God, and tried to be grateful, and appreciate. And now that I've finally thought about it.

I am thankful. [=

But to be honest, there has always been something, that i could never quite get my hands around, something that makes me upset with myself. I don't know what it is, but i think one day, i will find out.

I'm different somehow.

uncertainty.

2011-04-14T01:03:00.000+09:30

Sometimes we just don't quite understand ourselves. We're surrounded by uncertainty.

Is this the right choice?

Who am i?

What is my purpose in life?

Why am i alone?

Is there a God?

Do i like her?

What do i want to be?

So many questions and so little answers. Everyone has their own path, but one way or another, we will face these questions one day. How do we answer it?

Well we reflect. Everything we've done, will lead to that moment. And how we reflect on those moments, will determine our path. It's a cycle.

Sigh* well i'm back at whatever stage this cycle is. But i've been feeling alot of uncertainty lately. And i'm in a bit of a pickle haha.

can you do it?

2011-03-22T20:52:00.000+10:30

Whether you think you can or you can't, it's true.

so just do it.

It doesn't matter how you do it, where you do it, so-long as you do it.

Can you?........

Faith. †

2011-03-22T20:07:00.000+10:30

"Have faith in God," Jesus answered.

"I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

Mark 11:22-24

What does it mean to have good faith?

to me, good faith means not having doubt. It shows us things, our eyes can-not comprehend. It is also the difference between life and death.

"People's lives don't end when they die, it ends when they lose their faith".

Everyone has the ability to have faith, that is our greatest gift. What we make of it, or what we choose to have faith in is up to us. But the only faith that saves is in Jesus Christ.

Thanks be unto God for his amazing gift:

Jesus Christ, the only begotten Son of God

is the object of our faith; the only faith

that saves is faith in Him.

"Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life,

but whoever rejects the Son will not see life,

for God's wrath remains on him."

John 6:36

Have faith guys!!!! [=

In my mind.

2011-03-22T01:10:00.000+10:30

everyday, i try to be a superman of some sort.

because if i can make just one person happy, or provide them a laughter, or take something off their mind. Then i'm saving them for the moment. And that counts for me because, i'll never be-able to fly, or have super strength or X-Ray vision eyes (only joking) haha.

But the truth is, every Hero, has their secrets, their Villians, and their love story.

One-Day.

2011-03-22T00:53:00.000+10:30

I will travel to visit sites like this.

and this

and this.

It's not for my eyes to see, but for my heart. It's the sensation i'm after, the feeling of something out of this world is happening in our world. right here, and right now.

5 golden words.

2011-03-22T00:27:00.000+10:30

I saw this on Lily's Tumble (http://lilyypadpaper.tumblr.com/) and i just had to upload one onto my page. (hope you don't mine Lily haha) [=

So tell me, what 5 words were you searching for?

I found: Secrets, Rage, Fool, Resent, Passion.

and they are pretty much all that i feel at this moment in time. It also pretty much sums up my life story. (thumbs up, if you're like me haha)

Crush-ed

2011-03-22T00:06:00.000+10:30

When i was 12, i had several crushes.

When i was 18, i liked too many girls.

Now i'm almost 21, and i'm single and confused with love.

and after all those years, I've watched each one i loved, love somebody else.

despite the outcome, theres always somebody else out there. to love.

1, 2, 3....

2011-03-21T23:19:00.000+10:30

For me.... my biggest problem is taking the first step.

(if you ever see me in this pickle jar, please make a decision for me [=) it would be greatly appreciated. haha.

It's not because i'm nervous, or shy, or lack confidence, it's because i tend to over-think.

be truthful to your friends, but more importantly, be truthful towards yourself. (=

I would...

2010-12-01T09:08:00.001+10:30

rather live in a world with pain, than a world without.

because feeling everything is the whole point of everything. We wouldn't understand if we didn't feel. Whether we're confused like Kim or not, it's normal haha :P

Leap of faith.

2010-11-19T23:54:00.000+10:30

It gets boring when you live in black and white.

But when you choose to live without knowing, it's more colorful. It's a bigger picture. It becomes your dream.

however, colors fade.....

If only.

2010-11-19T23:45:00.000+10:30

We live everyday thinking "if only".

Today i made a decision knowing that i would regret. I'm a bad decision maker, is all it is. Inside i really didn't want to, but i couldn't keep her waiting.

Yes, love exists. But not in the form of "right here and now" but in the form of "this feels right".

but this is neither now or right.

Holy Spirit, i need God's help right now. Amen. [=

2010-11-07T03:28:00.001+10:30

and through these eyes.... i see an angel in disguise.

2010-11-07T02:28:00.001+10:30

We are God's Angel's.

Hope.

2010-11-07T02:04:00.000+10:30

Everything we do, we hope. Even when we're not hoping, theres always a glimpse of hope. Because no matter how dark the situation, light shimmers through. And hope is like light, because the light gives us hope.

So why do we hope? because everything is worth hoping for. Nothing is too small, nor too big. If you can think of it, its worth hoping for. One way or another, if not, our hopes will come true in heaven.

No situation is ever hopeless. It's just a test of hope.

have faith. [=

Theres no point in trying. Morals can't fight whats meant to be.

2010-11-07T01:53:00.000+10:30

I'm not sure why i'm feeling this pain. I shouldn't, because theres nothing to be hurt about, but thats what over thinking does to you. It makes you ache.

Every time i get this feeling, i try to make myself feel normal, like i can brush it off. Tell myself it's nothing, so when people ask, i can say "i'm okay, its nothing". I think everybody does that, we tell ourselves "its okay" because deep down, we're hoping everything's okay.

It's been a-while since I've felt like this, it's good that i'm feeling it again, but then its bad, because its a bad feeling to feel haha. To be honest, I've been trying to neglect anything from happening because it's not me, but the more i neglect, the more i'm pursuing it.

We tell ourselves we shouldn't, but the more we try, the more we're not, because it only happens if it's meant to happen right? and yet, we still try.

Reality is HUGE!

2010-10-30T13:01:00.000+10:30

but... IMAGINATION is infinity.

There will always be an idea, a thought, a memory, a light bulb.

Hot Dawg.

2010-10-26T02:55:00.001+10:30

how adorable right? nom nom nom nom. [=

Take each day one step at a time.

2010-10-26T02:54:00.000+10:30

enjoy it, and then move on..... Otherwise, you may trip or miss out.

Uni-Form day at Uni.

2010-10-24T23:11:00.000+10:30

After little planning from Suit-UP day. We decided to make a uniform day, in which nearly everyone of the group participated, which made it as L-E-G-E-N-D-A-R-Y as it was.

Check out the class photo. How could would it be, if we all went to the same high school? right? haha. Oh and i am wearing Kim's dress btw.

I love this photo. This was after the human pyramid, i just walked off with June on my shoulders and went to get some Sunkist haha.

What made the day even more better was, the bbq. two bbq's happened that day, the pharmacy one and the uni-life bbq. There were free lunch, games and fruit! haha. Kim beat me in connect 4, four times in a row. haha. Dam she's good. [=

Uniform day was funtastic! haha

Suit-UP! day.

2010-10-24T23:03:00.000+10:30

so the day was a Wendesday, which marked the international suit up day, in memory if Barney Stinson (from how i met your mother)

Suiting-UP

The stalking. (we had to role play gay couples, i have no idea why).

And the proposal. I've never done anything so gay in my entire life. Should check out the footage on Elysias Tumblr. i dont know the link to it unfortunately haha.

A super nice photo of June, this shot totally captured the natural beauty haha. She deny's it, but i know she likes the photo haha ;)

Was a super fantastic day. The previous night, at 2am, after my DOTA game, i decide to pop on msn, and Zhen instantly messages me to Suit-UP! and so i agreed. Worrying he would bail on me, i decided to rock up in school uniform, and shoving my suit inside my bag. On the bus to town, i get a call from elysia telling me to go into the botanics becuase they want to do a photoshoot.

What they didnt tell me was, it was a Gay photoshoot. But never-the-less it was fun. We got to do some acting, found some ducks, had a awesome director, and best of all, got to do it all with good friends.

And so the day followed on slowly, which then lead to the idea of having uniform day.

Happy Birthday Zoo Girl. [=

2010-10-24T22:53:00.000+10:30

So yesterday marked the birthday of my dear friend Zoe.

Okay, so i dont have any photoes of me and Zoe. But i've also know her for a short while, for about 3 years, slightly longer than Phoebe. And i just thought i'd share some memories and thoughts here. She was one of my favorite people to talk to, but i havnt spoken to her properly since. life happened haha.

But, it was her that got me to give church a go. And because of that, my life has transcended into the me i am today haha. That can only be good or bad haha. But i am very content with where i am today, and a large proportion of it is because of Zoe.

I remember when we use to chat for like 8+ hours a day. And she was always there for me to talk to. now thats a wonderful friend.

i was blessed, and because of her i found God. i dont know if you still read my blog Zoe, but i owe you a huge thanks and you probably dont know how much you helped me out at the time. But you did, and i will always be grateful [=

Thanks so much, and hope you had a super fantasticly blessed birthday [=

My favourite Pigeon

2010-10-24T22:42:00.000+10:30

Happy birthday Phoebe [=

I've know her for a short time, maybe 2-3 years, and i have never heard her complain about anything, your one of the most positive people i know [=

Hope you had a super fantastic one [=

Meanwhile....

Me and my most favorite nemesis. Got to catch up with her at phoebes, i only get to see her once in a full moon. And i must say, she reminds me of how jerky i've gotten haha. It began with her, my transition from being nice to a jerk, i'm not blaming her, i'm just saying, she made it fun. haha [=

And so, came the King of Jerks.

Mirror symbol:

2010-10-23T14:51:00.000+10:30

The mirror reflects emotions of the past. It could very well be possible that this week you will meet an old lover or friend for whom you had warm feelings.

Torn in between two.

2010-10-23T02:42:00.000+10:30

I feel like I've been ripped into two parts where one side wants this and the other wants that. And i think that you should let it burn. When your feelings ain't the same and your body don't want to (was listening to burn - Usher, at the time) haha.

Sometimes i know what i want, other times i don't. If only i wasn't so sure about myself. This uncertainty has been making me rather not myself. So many times i've convinced myself to let it burn. But it always remains the same, the more i try not to think about it. I guess it cant be helped until the candle burns out right? Maybe i wont let it, maybe i will. Not even i know what i'm capable of doing based on the past.

I hope i make the right call, because if i let this candle burn out, it will most likely be a regrettable one. I don't think i have it in me to make another naive decision.

Oh it's what you do to me.

2010-10-23T02:27:00.003+10:30

Dear Diary:

2010-10-23T02:26:00.000+10:30

I've become someone new again. I don't remember who i was, what i was doing, and have been sidetracked with my purpose. I think i'm at the human level (because i like to think i'm not human) haha

The level where we feel things that we think are real. We do things because we are afraid. And we over think small situations. God, i think i'm gonna need your help with this one. My hearts skipping beats.

No more denial.

2010-10-17T01:54:00.000+10:30

I'm not gonna lie to myself anymore. I'm pretty sure i like someone right now. haha [=

Liking someone is always messy. But nothing is ever clean before it's messy.

Miss-takes.

2010-09-19T01:23:00.000+09:30

Making a mistake doesn't matter; what matters is how determined you are to fix it. But remember, a mistake is like writing on a foggy window, no matter how hard you try to cover it up, if you look close enough... it's still there.

The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention, that sometimes your heart takes you places you shouldn't be, places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring, and sometimes your heart takes you to places that can~~never~~ lead to a happy ending. And that's not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, and you go into the unknown. And once you do, you can never go back.

don't expect, just live.

2010-09-19T01:06:00.000+09:30

one thing about being on top of the world;

is it gives you a long, long way to fall.

you spend so much time expecting the worse.

that you don't even notice the moments when someone loves you.

Love.

2010-09-19T01:01:00.000+09:30

people don't change,

they become more of who they really are.

that's why love is madness.

it's too easy to lose your mind,

when you lose your heart.

nothing was real.

2010-09-19T00:56:00.000+09:30

loneliness doesn't kill you,

it aches and it taunts you,

but it doesn't kill you.

sometimes i wish it did.

you obviously can't see how much you have changed,

and how much the old you meant to me.

the day you actually take time to notice, is the day you're too late.

What are we?

2010-09-19T00:49:00.000+09:30

turns out;

you can't save people from themselves.

you're right, i'm not who i once was.

because we arn't who we once were.

What's it worth?

2010-09-19T00:43:00.000+09:30

If it isn't hard,

it isn't worth having.

It's the possibility that keeps me going,

and though you may call me a dreamer or a fool or any other thing,

i believe that anything is possible.

You surprised me too.

2010-09-19T00:36:00.000+09:30

If its the thought that counts,

then you can count on me,

because i think about you all the time.

Heres a psycological fact: [=

when a person cries and the first drop of tears comes from the right eye,

it's happiness. but when the first roll is from the left, it's pain.

What i could never admit to myself.

2010-09-19T00:27:00.000+09:30

- I'm so scared that one day,

you'll finally feel the same about me.

but i'll have gotten over you,

that's why i can't let go.

Its like moving mountains.

Human.

2010-09-19T00:21:00.000+09:30

Despite all that i feel now, everytime, she makes me feel human. I don't think i can get enough of that.